I'd say you need to definitely go - not probably.
Don't take that the wrong way - I mean that with kindness, but when therapy is suggested by a professional, its a good indication that you need it.
Aj
update: i tested negative
the counselor encouraged me to see a therapist. i probably will.
Vance, thank you. I will report back my status here.
Get HIV out of your mind because it really is not a risk from everything you have said.
I suggest treatment with a therapist. I don't think you have a sexual addiction, but you do have a problem that is making you see these other women.
The ironic thing is....
My wife is pregnant with our first, and she got a lump in her armpit. I freaked out when she got a yeast infection at the start of pregnancy, but learned quickly that it's common for pregnant women to have all sorts of funky things.
So naturally, I am killing myself. I have at moments just wished I was dead cause I am such a pathetic person. Part of me wants to have HIV just to end it and come out about my sexual addictions.....I feel that I _deserve_ it, you know? But she does not, and that's the greatest thing that causes me to worry. Not myself, but her and my unborn child. If they are harmed, well, then I should die.
I am just being brutally honest here.
Thanks Vance! I will get the the other tests too, but I have no symptoms so I am not even concerned about that.
I am also worried about HIV though.... =(
I am probably a retard though.
It is surprising to me then, how many people must fail to use rubbers as common as STD is! For me, there has never been a temptation to remove rubber from the equation. I kind of regret not using protection for oral.....cause if not for that I would care less. I agree, condoms are safe.
I am realizing how brainwashed I was as a kid about STD's....
I agree with Vance. He has restated the risks well. I feel your main problem is the anxiety you are having. I hope you can work through this and feel better about yourself. Take care.
Well from receiving oral sex you could get gonorrhea, NGU, herpes and syphilis. Herpes and syphilis is rare to transmit during oral sex. Most common is gonorrhea and NGU but without symptoms no real need for testing except to ease your mind. You can test after 1 week for gonorrhe and NGU, syphilis at 6 weeks and herpes at 3-4 months.
From giving oral sex you could get herpes and syphilis-see above for those chances.
As for protected sex-well you were protected and not at any real risk for an STD.