STD AND SALIVA

[johndoe1127]

last fall recieved oral from a friend a few times and last time was dec 1rst.  I started showing some small very small tiny pimples on the head of my penis.  The dermatologist/ the planned parenthood nurse/ and everyone was telling me deffinetly not std's but the dermatologist suggested a yeast infection.  Medicine helped clear it came and went throughout the winter.  I tested that first week in december and results were all negative but nurses reminded me it could take some time.  My friend who gave me oral was tested jan 1rst which for her was 3 months after she was with her last partner.  All her results came back negative HIV included.
(foolishly) recently I saw an escort.  she ended up starting to give me a handjob and 2-3 times spit a good amount of saliva on my penis.  No symptoms but hasn't even been a week.It was dark I got scared and left after she spit 3 times.
So here I am 6 weeks after the first std scare and now it's like the timeline is starting all over.  Should I wait another 3-6 months to have std's checked?  I'm scared and definitely done being stupid.  I have read many post about how it doesn't spread but still have anxiety attacks and huge guilt. now to my questions.
Should I be worried about my friend who I haven't recieved oral or anything else from since dec 1rst?
Should I be worried about the escorts Saliva and her spitting on my penis? ( I did not finish if that matters)
Should I not have sex with my Girlfriend?  
What Can I do about this anxiety and guilt?
Thank you for your time and help.  I read this site a lot recently see all of your previous answer but explaining my situation maybe will help with some closure.  I feel like i'm going to DIe and think that I have the worst (HIV).  I feel like i've already killed myself,  I feel like nothing else matters, its making me depressed and All I want is to know I haven't ruined my life, my girlfriends life, or killed both of us by catching something.  Thank you

[Edward W Hook, MD]

As is typically the case. monkeyflower is right on target.  I will deal with the easy stuff, your risk of HIV or other STD first, then turn to the more important topic, your mental health.

There is no risk from having a partner's spit applied to your penis.  No risk of STD or HIV of any sort.  Before you go there, this is true wether or not your partner had a sore in her mouth or whether opr not there was blood in her saliva.  You need not be concerned, nor do you need further testing.  And yes, you can have sex with your girlfriend.

Now let's deal with your fears and anxiety.  The fact that you have sen many of our answers to similar questions yet express such fear and anxiety concerns me.  I would urge you to either talk about this with your own personal health care provider or, should he/she minimize your concerns or not fully address them, seek the assistance of a trained mental health provider.  

I hope this helps.  EWH

[monkeyflower]

I don't mean to jump in before either of the doctors reply, but your last paragraph concerned me. Those kinds of thoughts can be serious. If you haven't already done so, please talk to your family doctor about how you're feeling. I also urge you to consider counseling. In the meantime, if you're in the US and having thoughts of suicide, please call 1-800-suicide, or call 911.