Hi, I just thought I'd introduce myself to you all as I've recently joined the community. My story is pretty much like most of yours; I've been recently diagnosed with CFS/ME and Epstein Barr Virus. However, I'm not totally convinced that I have CFS/ME due the nature of the diagnosis, (through the process of elimination), as opposed to hard evidence. After doing much research on MS and considering my own symptoms I think that I may have a type of MS. I admit that many of the symptoms are the same and that ME can mask other illnesses. I've seen three doctors who all give a different interpretation to my symptoms. So far I've heard CFS/ME, MS and Muscular Dystrophy, (the latter due to muscle pain and weakness of the limb girdles). Yet the last doctor had the balls to refer me to a neurologist after simple tests to check my muscle strength, eye sight, etc.
Over the last 12 months I've been coping with this pretty well. I have moments when I break down crying, especially at night when I'm alone listening to my music with my glass of wine (medicine), but overall I try to remain positive. However, family life has recently become strained as I've been advised to have my own toothbrush, (as opposed to sharing a Braun with separate heads), avoid kissing and other 'minor' issues. Yet in the early hours of this morning a doctor arrived to check out our three year old daughter, whose now been diagnosed as having swine flu. Because of the EBV I've been isolated from my wife and daughter because of the risk of complications due to my illness. My wife was advised that they are not to have contact with me. So, it hit me for possibly the first time, of the seriousness of the illness I have. Yet, just over a week ago I was almost hospitalised due to complications caused by gastroenteritis. You'd think I'd know different.
So, here I am, reading many posts from you guys in similar positions and learning a great deal. As you can guess from my user name I'm a therapist. And although I understand much of what's going on professionally and theoretically I'm still in the same boat as all of you. I'm going through the 5 stages of grief, asking myself those immortal words 'why me?' But then I get all philosophical and remember some wise words that someone once said, 'Why not you?'
Anyway, this is a great site for many reasons and I'm so glad I found you all. I hope you all make contact with me at some point and give me some wise words of your own, tips and pointers that may help me cope better over the term. Plus if you have some good jokes I'd like to hear them lol.
Merry xmas to you all.....xx