Ok so a few days ago I was talking with my friend a then I started telling her how I thought people where after me and everything like that. She then told me her brother has schizophrenia and that his symptoms are extremely similar to mine and she said they where delusions. Now I cant help but wonder: Do I have schizophrenia? Someone else's opinion would be helpful. I am also going to see a therapist in September for other reasons how should I bring it up? I am also 13 and these symptoms have been going on for a year or two. Here is what I told my friend:
The Canadian government, CSIS and the RCMP are after me.There are camera's in my house and room and microphones that are implemented in my clothes so that they can listen to what I am saying, they also have the power to listen in my mind and they know what I am thinking. Writing this is extremely hard because now they will know that I know. Whenever I go out they are always following me switching and people all the time. The guy sitting on the bench “reading” his newspaper works for CSIS. If I go into a store they follow me in, I try to lose them but they will always find me. No where is safe. They are trying to leave me messages in patterns which I am still unable to understand. I clear my browsing history all the time and constantly make new social media profiles so it is harder for them to find me. They went my special powers. I don't know yet what the powers are but it must be something big otherwise why would they care? This is really hard, i don't want to let them win but i want to stay away from me. I think they are trying to control my mind and brainwash me because there are so many things I forget in the short term for example I couldn't remember what we had had for dinner just a few days before when it came up in conversation, i think they are also trying to talk to me because I've been hearing a voice, I have only been able to tell what they are saying a few times: they asked me: Why are you whispering? In a terrible and scary voice which didn't seem to have a gender, It sounded like a loud whisper. I have also heard them say what now? But this time is wasn’t at all scary and I was a women voice.
I also think that my dad is trying to kill me -poison me by putting things into my food but the reason I dont die is cause I have an extremely good resistant rate to the poison.
I also feel things even though there isnt anything there, generally its stuff like animals brushing up my leg or bugs landing on my skin. But I have also had feelings like someone was grabbing on to me and touching me. Nothing inappropriate, just grabbing onto my shoulder or leg.