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Hello - Do i have early Schizophrenia? Or devloping it?


Since around the age of 10 i suffered from thoughts of cars flying in to me, or cars on string (Odd i know) i was hit by a car a few years before and saw a plane crash at an airshow. The thoughts went eventually and popped up every now and then, this was okay to handle.
I heard a song which was an upbeat quick tempo song whilst on a car journey, since then i never liked the song and didn't like fast songs.

It went again, and the Cars and Planes never bothered me. When i was around 14 i suffered from them again for around 3 months.

I then a year later suffered from them again and found it hard at school, the thoughts were now different they were of things going fast say imagine - The sea going fast, cars going fast, people speaking fast ECT - and i had them constantly they caused me many hours of hardly any sleep and a few days of school, it caused me so much anxiety i got, hot and bothered i also shaked and was always scared for my future.
My mum, dad, auntie and Nan found out and eventually after a long period saw a councilor for six 1 hour sessions.
She talked to me about it and i found it didn't help to much, we only practiced a few breathing techniques and talked even though she was nice.
I didn't really have a connection with her.

I had the thoughts on and off in long or short periods - Now they are mostly of traveling fast such as where i am spinning or being on like a fast ride - It's still very distressing. I told my girlfriend and i cried about it sadly which made her cry.
We are still together after over two years.

I find i still get them and only my girlfriend knows i have them.

I find the thoughts can be constant and when there not I am either anxious or depressed about them, i find myself isolation myself in my room, turning on my laptop and TV and sitting there. I search up about mental issues and OCD to calm me down and sometimes i cant sleep.

I have been back to the GP about a year ago one person said i will refer you if you dont feel better a month later, i went back then another doctor had to see me and said it's just a teenage thing.

I worry about my future and my carrer of being a Filmmaker, i think that i may be mad or depressed my whole life.
I find i will one minuet be Happy thinking maybe i will be okay today then i get sad and depressed.

I feel like if i bother my girlfriend too much i will upset her which did happen a few times with my Mum and Dad.

It's worse on nights for me. I find it's hard for me to concentrate when i have them bad and also i find myself having racing thoughts, i sometimes find it hard to rest.
And sometimes i feel like i have loads of thoughts in my head like sometimes feel my thoughts are goinging on by themselves, when I'm really stressed almost shouting (which is utter nonsense) but that might be due to the fact i suffer from Tinnitus. That scares me sometimes because it's stupid.
If I'm suffering Bad from anxiety i can get paranoid over some stupid things then think that was pathetic. Sometimes i think about the room spinning and think it feels real thats why i'm scared but it's not real it's just my mind.

I dont really worry about the plane crash or car crash anymore. Although i dont like things going fast or roller coasters

Not asking for a diagnosis just an opinion i appreciate the help.

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675718 tn?1530033033
part of what you desrcibed is depression and part of it seems like issues dealing with being bi-polar depression do you feel like you have unstable mood swings? are you always singing out loud? when the room spins around do you feel your in the room? just asking :)
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Um the room doesnt spin really, it's the fact i imagine it and its constant, like i imagine things going fast in my head. It feels so real but i know it's not happening and i cant see it.
I do now and then have mood swings yes, causes me alot of anxiety and i do worry if it's Schizophrenia.

Thanks for the reply.
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1785448 tn?1353790196
I can't tell you whether it's one thing or another but I definately think it's something. I think you should talk to a psychiatrist about what you're going through..there are things they can do to help you. I don't think you're mad and it doesn't have to be this way forever. Unless you see a doctor, you're never going to know. Also, I think your girlfriend and family would be supportive if you were doing everything you can to get whatever help you need. You need to talk to a professional about it.
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675718 tn?1530033033
there is also NAMI they could help establish a support network to help you and my mind races too it is part of my addiction to alcohol &drugs my addictions therapist said :)
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Hello, thanks, i just worry incase it is Schizophrenia or something.
Thanks for the replies

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1100598 tn?1413127426
Do you have a hard time sleeping because you can't get your mind to shut off? That sounds like anxiety.

Schizophrenia is a mental illness classified by many symptoms. There are positive and negative symptoms.
Postitive symptoms include: Hallucinations such as hearing voices in their head, seeing objects that nobody else sees, or smelling smells nobody else smells. Delusions are another positive symptom such as believing one is Jesus Christ.
Negative symptoms include: Flat affect or speaking in a monotone voice, lack of pleasure in everyday life, poor hygiene. Just to name a few.

Schizophrenia seldom starts at a young age, it usually begins in a person's early 20's. My suggestion is to see a doctor and tell him about what you are experiencing.  :)
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