I need help

[JEJ50817]

I've been talking to myself for about 4 years but it's become worse since last year during the summer. I'm always daydreaming and unable to concentrate especially on work. I began to talk out loud into myself in my apartment and in the car. People look at me as if I'm crazy and even my neighbor has moved due to me talking to myself. I have daily outbursts to the point where I experience chest pain, lightheadedness/dizziness, and headaches/migraines. My conversations always include this family member trying to control my life. Other conversations include my parents trying to boss me around. All of these conversations result in me fighting for independence in my life.
My anxiety is really bad due to the fact that I don't want to cause problems. I've been bullied and I'm very sensitive. The good news is that I've begun to come out side the box more and become more socialable. I want to meet new ppl and make new friends. I want to explore the world but this anxiety and talking to myself is holding me back. Can this be due to stress and no friends? I just graduated from college but never really had fun during my life like others?

I'm also always thinking about situations that I may be put in the future and what could I do to prevent or solve those problem before hand. Sad part is that I'm not sure if they will ever happen?

Is something really wrong with me?

[waveydays]

I agree with drifter. You may have some kind of schizophrenic disorder. I would see a therapist who can diagnose mental illnesses. I think it would help to get in a habit of writing down your feelings often. That would take the pressure off of you and there would be less to talk to yourself about. Write down all your worries and fears and bring that with you to therapy. It might help you express yourself more and give them some idea what is wrong with you.
I used to talk to myself alot, it was often about the same issues you talk about, and I still do occasionally but the medication I take really stops all that almost entirely. If I forget my meds or I neglect to take them then talking to myself is one of my first signs I am relapsing.
I think you will be okay if you see a therapist right away. They need to assess you and get a clear history of you, if you can bring a family member for support -to be with you and talk to the therapist- that will make it easier for the therapist to assess you.
Also, meditations on youtube for calming the mind might help too. I find if I do them in the morning when its quiet I have a much more productive day.
I wish you good luck and congratulations on having the courage to speak out about this.

[drifter0213]

you may have paranoid schizophrenia I suffer from SZ since '07 dxed same type youll need meds and support groups meet others with mental health programs look around becuz you are not alone take a chance with meds and post your progress here in medhelp