I conquered masturbating when my mom died. I went back to the the faith she taught me. I served in the church and was happy. All of a sudden I slipped a little and now I am back to masturbating and hating myself so much. I still teach in the church which makes it more horrible. I need help, I don't want this. I am married and my husband also gives me satisfaction. I don't know why I am watching porn and masturbating when my husband is always in to me. Please I need to change, help.