Did I lose my virginity before?

[Mc1313]

So about two years ago I had sex for the first time as I thought with my boyfriend but I didn't bleed and I thought you were suppose to bleed when you lose your virginity as a girl. I remember when I was in pre k and my older brother was like 8 maybe he's four yres older thn me . I remeber we use to do things tht we shouldnt do like touch each other and dry hump and kiss and I remember we use to do those things and I think to myself now how in the heck could I do tht . I guess i thought it was a game. And bc of tht i remeber i would dry hump the bed whn i was around tht age . And one time my parents catched us dry humping and the disciplined us and i remember the nxt day we all acted like nothing happened. I dnt remember much after tht. Thn whn i was like 8 or 10 i remember me and my bro and my lil bro were home alone and my older bro was like come here and i went and he was erect and naked and smiled and showed it to me and thn i was like eww and i wonder if when i was in pre k if we did more thn just dry hump bc i didnt bleed whn i thought i lost my virginity to my bf . Cause all tht stuff came to my head when i realized tht i just had sex for the 1st time as i thought and didn't bleed. My big bro and I we both know wht happened whn we were young and we're close . its like we just put tht behind us and went on with our lives. But I remember tht whn we were little we use to watch our parents whn thy would do it maybe thats how it started or maybe he was molested . And When i was 8 i still didnt know about sex i remember i had the tlk with my mom whn i was 11 the day i got my period. I also dnt remember a conversation of no one should touch you down there with my mom. I kinda learned by myself through out the yres. My childhood is a blur but i do remember the bad stuff i did whn i was young with my brother occasionally i get flash backs and it makes me mad that i could let it happen . I should of said no but instead i played along with the sexual games. We're all grown up now and my bro is married and i have a son with my bf its just now i see my son and I want to keep him safe from all those things like me and my bro we were innocent we didnt know any better i mean i didnt maybe when he was 10 he knew better but idk this world is messed up. I was reading forums of people who went through the same with their siblings and other family members and it reminded me of me bc i was like yeah ive been through something similar. I think bck and im like my parents should hve closed their door and not be so loud but i guess they thought we were asleep or tht we're little and wont do nothing but kids do see things and do mimmick actions which is why i dont want my son to see me and his dad or anything but i read on here tht they can learn it through other family memebers or friends and it really is up to the parents to not expose their kids to sexual things and if they see their kids do something thy shouldnt do to tlk about it and explain to thm its wrong and what it is like my parents should have done instead of just disciplining us and thn acting like nothing happened. And thy did ask us wht we were doing and why and we said playing and whn they asked where we saw it we told thm tht we learned it from thm and thn they hit us with the belt and thn the nxt day everyone acted like nothing happened.
Sorry for being so long I just needed to get it off my chest. Ive never told anyone just kept it to myself.