For starters, I'm a 26 year old male, people I know have stated that I'm stressed and that I worry about things that don't necessarily pertain to me a lot, I've also been described as someone that has Autistic traits and depression (though I have not been diagnosed with any mental disorder). I sit a lot hours out of the day because my career requires me to, more recently I've been trying to become more active and think that maybe some of the symptoms I've experienced have gone away, at least for the short term, however I'd still like to ask it here to see if anyone might think that I need to further investigate. Basically my worry is about something that I did in my late teens, that involves a anal toy and it being inserted correctly (this was almost 10 years ago). I don't remember it hurting much, if at all when I used it, I don't necessarily consider it a traumatic event either, however it's something that I worry about because I know that it was done incorrectly and I'm worried that maybe I've hurt myself internally and don't know it, after it was done it was the last time I did it. I don't experience pain during defecation, and more recently it has come more naturally because I've been trying to remain more active. The pain in my tailbone that I thought may have been a symptom of this act seems to (so far) stabilized since I've started walking around and doing other things more, I asked my doctor about the tailbone pain to which he had stated it is because I sit a lot and that the muscles in my tailbone area need to be stretched and strengthened, I didn't mention the particular act above because frankly I'm a little embarrassed to tell them unless I absolutely need to. Am I just going crazy? I've thought of the possibility that I may have experienced chronic problems if it had really messed something up, but I can't get over the fact that I did it wrong initially and potentially could have (or did) mess something up down there.