Hello, I'm Dana and I'm a 26 year old male. For the past year and a half I've had basically no sex drive. I do believe it's a psychological problem and haven't really sought any help for it. I got into my first and only relationship in early August 2010 with a girl I met through a co-worker. We fell hard and fast for each other and she was very beautiful and I loved being physical and having sex with her. I had always preferred the idea of "making love" over so-called "f*cking." Was never into the idea of casual sex or one-nighters, cheating, etc, but had no issue with pre-marital sex. A few months after we started seeing each other, she donated a kidney to her brother. A week or so after the surgery she suddenly, and without explanation, ended the relationship via text message. Didn't get to see her face or hear her voice again, didn't get to say goodbye to her or anything. Since then I have become a very different person. I started delving into self loathing, accompanied by a new found taste for heavy, angry music (bands like Meshuggah, The Acacia Strain, Machine Head, etc.) I quickly became very misogynistic as well and hated even hearing female voices and still more or less do. The thought of sexuality disgusts me pretty much in general. I don't even remember the last time I had an erection last for more than a few minutes, and the last time I "came" was during sex with her. I also stopped taking care of myself on a daily basis. I stopped shaving and getting haircuts. I will regularly skip taking a shower, sometimes for a few days. I barely brush my teeth and will wear the same clothes for days at a time. (note: i work at a salvage yard where I don't have to necessarily worry about such things.) I rarely smile or laugh anymore and do very little talking. My friends and family are concerned for me on and off. I know I don't genuinely hate women. I still have some life-long female friends who I socialize with on a somewhat regular basis. Any time I'm around any strange female, though, I become very anxious and feel the need to get away from her. Any time I've tried to imagine myself starting a future relationship with someone, my first feelings are deep shame and embarrassment, followed by sadness/depression. I go through regular bouts of depression. I'm not really sure why something as simple as a breakup was so hard on me or why the residual effects have stuck with me for so long. I just know I feel like almost a complete stranger to myself anymore. Should I swallow my pride and just see a therapist? I've gone to great lengths for going on 2 years to convince myself that relationships, sex, reproduction, starting a family, etc, are simply just side effects of long term brainwashing. I just don't know what sort of benefits, if any, a therapist is going to be able to provide. Just looking for some input. Anyone else ever feel like this for as long a duration as I have? Am I going insane?