Hi. I am a beautiful 40 year old woman with a size 2/4 body that is very toned. My boyfriend, that I live with, and I are pretty sexual. I believe I am bi sexual given the opportunity. Well, I love to look at a naked womans body anyway and would love to touch and fondle and suck. We are very beautiful creatures. My boyfriend and I exchange pictures of women and sometimes look at them together. We have toys that we love to use and a little pain is nothing bad. Nowhere near BDSM though. So here is the problem....
Every night or very close to it, except on the weeekends we actually have sex, I wake to him masturbating. Most often I get up and leave the room. When he comes out into the living room he asks me why I left. He claims he doesn't get himself off. Although he did tell me he got himself off while thinking about me the first night we went out. Anyhow, we have sex most of the time only on the weekends. I would prefer it every night. I have told him I would like our relationship of 8 months now to be open and honest and if he needs to *** all over me everynight, at least let me watch.
I agree with others on this site that most men have to fantasize about something. I just don't understand this. It is making me feel like I am not good enough or even badly about myself.
Please, can someone help me to understand this. I have tried to talk to him about this in not so many words but have gotten nowhere.
i have told him