I have been suffering from some pretty bad performance anxiety. I am dating a girl that I really love and when we first attempted sex, I had a problem getting it up. Ever since then, I have been caught in the terrible cycle where I only think about getting an erection, thus causing me to lose my erection. Medically I am fine. Always erect on my own, as well as with her for foreplay or oral. The only problem is with intercourse - right before condom goes on or insertion I panic and lose it.
Recently, I finally was successful. I don't know what I did differently, but I was successful once and then many times after. In a period of maybe 3 days, we had intercourse over 10 times and had no problem at all. Unfortunately, the last time we were intimate in this period I was taking very long to ejaculate, most likely because I had nothing left in me. Of course, I started worrying a little, leading to a loss of erection. After that, I tried the next morning and I was back to where I started - lost it right before insertion. Now I am worrying again, which I know will lead to it happening again. This is really driving me insane. I know I can perform because I did many times, but all it took was that one incident and I am back to worrying about it again. Any suggestions on how to block this in my mind, what to do differently, etc. I basically know I just need to forget about my erection, but it is easier said than done. One more thing: this is a long distance relationship which I think compounds the problem. After it happens I go about a week without seeing her, and I think of sex as something I need to prove that I can do next time I see her, which puts a lot of pressure on me. I know this is the absolute wrong way of thinking, but it is very hard to stop. Thanks.