when i was 10 i experimented with 2 friends, both male (i am a male) and at first i didn;t like it but after a few tries id did. we did it about 4 times. but now as i get older i hope i've developed hocd, ****, probably gay. i've had hocd in lots of forms my whole life. now i worry i am gay. ive had crushes on girls even when i was ten and still do. ive cried over them. and now that this is coming back i don't know what to do. i used to only watch straight porn or lesbain. i tried gay and i find it disgusting. the worst part is though there is a homosexual in two of my classes and he touches me, i don't know what to think. i didn't get a boner from him and i don't like him. i've never had an emotional attraction to a man ever. help. tell me what you think. (oh, and i've had hocd for one year, and the thing when i was ten happened 4 years ago. ) before i got hocd in that three year time frame i only had thoughts about women