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I think I was molested
Growing up I thought i was gay, i am 19, I would block it out for a long time then I would remember that I was gay. this is from when I was around 7-8 to 18. I came out when I was 18, I was in a situation with my two friends and their friend josh, josh new I was gay and at one point we were separated from my other friends, he asked if he could kiss me and I started to have a panic attack but kissed him and when my other friends came back I made the one promise not to leave me alone with him. I felt like i was powerless and couldn't say no. (this isn't the molesting im talking about, but a symptom). I also question if i am gay because I joined a dating website and whenever someone starts talking to me and it gets to the point of contact I get scared and will back out and delete my profile.
I have a memory of me being young and awaking to someone having my underwear down and I asked them what they were doing and they told me to go back to bed. I also remember being awake at night and just staring at this digital clock in a dark room. The other night I had a dream that I was little and this man was chasing me when I was on the floor and he just grabbed me and put his finger in my butt.
I also can not stand affection or when people comfort me and touch me and I am wondering if this is why.
I think it may have been my uncle who killed himself when I was young which could be why it's hard to remember since it would of possibly stopped then. My mom told me this story how I was at the grocery store with him once and he got mad at me and told me to just shut up, and I demanded he took me home, this must of been when I was around 5 or younger. Looking back on that story I just think the relationship we had was suspicious. (me being alone with my uncle).
I also have a very weak defense whenever an older person yells at me i break down and have a panic attack and cant breathe.
I have a memory of me being young and awaking to someone having my underwear down and I asked them what they were doing and they told me to go back to bed. I also remember being awake at night and just staring at this digital clock in a dark room. The other night I had a dream that I was little and this man was chasing me when I was on the floor and he just grabbed me and put his finger in my butt.
I also can not stand affection or when people comfort me and touch me and I am wondering if this is why.
I think it may have been my uncle who killed himself when I was young which could be why it's hard to remember since it would of possibly stopped then. My mom told me this story how I was at the grocery store with him once and he got mad at me and told me to just shut up, and I demanded he took me home, this must of been when I was around 5 or younger. Looking back on that story I just think the relationship we had was suspicious. (me being alone with my uncle).
I also have a very weak defense whenever an older person yells at me i break down and have a panic attack and cant breathe.
MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL
Hello.
It's not clear to me whether you asking a question. It seems to me that you have some memories which may or may not indicate something happened in the past which is troublesome for you. This is way too complicated an issue to discuss in this format.
You seem confused about your sexuality. My suggestion is that you see a counselor who is trained to help people with sexual concerns so you can sort this all out and decide whether it means anything. Best of luck to you. Dr. J
It's not clear to me whether you asking a question. It seems to me that you have some memories which may or may not indicate something happened in the past which is troublesome for you. This is way too complicated an issue to discuss in this format.
You seem confused about your sexuality. My suggestion is that you see a counselor who is trained to help people with sexual concerns so you can sort this all out and decide whether it means anything. Best of luck to you. Dr. J
Hey its hard to say if you were molested or not because i too have the same things as you, affection makes me feel extremely uncomfortable yet its something i crave but dont know how to handle. I end up liking men that dont treat me well because the ones that do make me feel uncomfortable. When in a relationship as soon as we start getting too close i will sabotage it so that they will break up with me. I cant stand a person knowing me too well. Yet i desire to be loved and want to get married and have children but the seriousness of it freaks me out. I have been told by counsellors in the past that i was molested but i have no memory of this. I was touched by other kids but i dont know if this counts as being molested? Dont read too much into your Uncle, its normal to spend time alone with Auntys and Uncles etc. It doesnt mean he molested you. Im not saying he didnt, im just saying you dont know. so dont worry yourself with something you will never find the answer to. Its a waste of you energy. Just focus on trying to help how you feel now. Talk to your Dr and explain abit about yourself and that you would like to be refferred to a psycologist or a counsellor or sex therapist. I hope some of what ive said has helped you :)
Oh God.
I am so sorry.
I know what it is to be molested. I hate the fact that adults take advanctage of babys. I pray that you will never blame yourself for his actions. Please do not hurt yourself or others because of his actions. Please seek help, long term help mental help. I bet you any amount of money that you were not his first victim nor his last.
I am so sorry.
I know what it is to be molested. I hate the fact that adults take advanctage of babys. I pray that you will never blame yourself for his actions. Please do not hurt yourself or others because of his actions. Please seek help, long term help mental help. I bet you any amount of money that you were not his first victim nor his last.
I also wet the bed till a very late age
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