leave him. god has helped u .. u r one of the lucky ,lucky women in the world who were warned before a great harm would have been done to them. my friend was killed by her abusive husband, she died.its over for her. y ?because of him but also cauz she didnt leave when she could. her kids faced all the pain n then he abused them and they had her but shes gone too. plz run away as fast as u can. be happy to be alive and to be able to find someone else in this big world who will love u. life is giving u chances avail them .
Thank you everyone. "Women Who Love Too Much" is hard to read but necessary to read if you have ever been in this situation. And Doctor, thank you, that is very reassuring that I did the right thing. Thank you.
very excellent advice from the forum doctor. very reassuring that you made the right decision. How is that book "women who love too much" ?? Recommend it to rest of us ?
I am in awe of you at the moment! I know this reply is a little late - like nearly a week - but I've just caught up on it. I am usually on the Women's Health forum. I have so much admiration for you doing this. I once helped my aunty (who was only 39) go through the same thing about five years ago. The only difference was that she was married and a month after she moved out she found out she was pregnant to him! She continued to live away from her abusive husband (emotionally and mentally that is) throughout the entire pregnancy and he was only allowed at the birth because it was his first baby and she didn't want to deny him that. Anyway, long story short they ended up getting divorced and the kid is now nearly 4. I watched her go through the hardest time in her life particularly being pregnant. She was on anti-depressants shortly after the birth too. I just want to say that you sound like a really strong women - just like my aunty was. I wish you all the best in your emotional recovery and hope this makes you a stronger women who knows what she wants and needs from her man in the future!
I am so gald you wrote back, I began to worry. I know i do not know you but just to think there is some one going through so much worrys me.
You are so brave, and i know it hurts but you are doing the right thing and as time goes by it will get easier.
Who-dis said it best, you do not owe him anything, please just get that out of your head. I am glad you are at a friends house, atleast you have some one to talk to. Of cource there is us but someone you can HOLD a conversation with
GOOD LUCK!!!
I think you are on the right path. Of course sometimes taking the right path isn't always easy. I know it is tough right now, but this is only temporary. (don't you love that word... temporary?) = )
I am happy to hear that you have a lot of support and that you made the list. Keep looking at that piece of paper, when necessary.
Hi, it is funny that you say that because I made a list today. and I know there are some things that I am forgetting and I look at the list and it is embarrassing that I put up with so much bs. I had forgotten some of the things he had done like lock me out of the house and break one of my ceramic things that was really special to me. (I found it in pieces in the back yard.) I have started talking to a counselor and she told me the first thing I need to do is read the book "Women who Love Too Much" and every time I get to a part that makes me mad or sick to my stomach or cry to call her because these are my "hot buttons" and my mind is trying to deny them. I also went to my m.d. and got an anti-depressant just to help me with things like not eating and sleeping and to kind of keep my emotions at bay because it is hard to get through the day without crying. Tomorrow I am getting a bunch of family and friends together to get the rest of my furniture out and then I am changing my phone number. I wanted to wait because he is still trying to call me and I didn't want to put him in such a rage he destroyed anything. After that, I think I can hopefully try to move on. He is still trying to make me feel bad, sending messages about how much he misses me and his last one was a little angry. It said "Ok go ahead and ignore me I guess I have never forgiven you for anything or done anything for you." It's hard but I have a huge support group with family, friends, and people here on this board. Thank you, everyone.
Hi Punkybear,
There is some good advice in here. I'm in your corner... no matter what happens. I hope you started writing down some of the things your ex has done to you. Believe it or not, it really helps. My friend forced me to do it once. = )
Stay strong.... keep in touch and no matter what, I'm in your corner.
Stay tough..you will get through this. Please consider changing your phone number. I know that a part of you wants to hear from him, but I think it's really just making things more difficult for you. Please let us know how you're doing...
Good for you, punkybear.
My prayers and thoughts are with you--please be strong!
He just sent me a message that said "I am so lonely without you. I can't even stay at the house." It is taking all my strength not to answer.
Good for you.
I agree with the post that says to make sure you really need the stuff you left behind. If you do, then you might need some help getting it. If not leave it behind.
He does not need an explanation. If you give him an explanation he will jsut say he will fix whatever you say. If you decide to tell him why just tell him that he abused you and that is the end of the story. No conversation, no second chances. You are done with him.
If he continues to contact you keep a log of the times, where when. You may need that if he can't let go and turns into a stalker. If he keeps contacting you tell him you want no for the contact- none. Change your telephone number- email, whatever- don't give him the chance to contact you.
Above all be strong- His actions brought this on. You did nothing wrong.
Think hard about whether you REALLY need anything else before getting a court order for your stuff. I can't think of any stuff that would be worth that trouble, and possibly enraging him furthur.
You don't owe him an explaination of any type. He knows what he did. He'll use your explaination and twist it around so that it doesn't seem so bad. He's trying to manipulate you. Good for you for getting and staying away.
You are being very brave & strong. I hope you are feeling good about your decision. Perhasps you might think about changing your phone number. Might save you from having to deal with all his messages, etc. Stay strong & hang in there...you will not always feel like you do today and there is much happiness ahead!
Thank you for your concern.I am at a friend's house. Yes, I have been on a roller coaster for the last year and a half. I just want my life back. I'm surprised I don't have gray hair, as uptight and nervous as I always was. I guess you should never ignore your sixth sense. I have moved most of my stuff out, I think I am going to have to get a court order for the rest because I will have no contact with him. He keeps leaving me messages about how his life is over now and I ripped his heart out, etc. He even said I owe it to him to tell him WHY I am doing this. I am still barely eating and sleeping but I am seeking counseling so I can get better. My brain knows I am doing the right thing, my heart just doesn't know yet. But I will never go back to him, that's for sure.
Where are you? You haven't posted on this post for a couple of days. Your story is so sad and I almost cried when I read one of the post (C6 I think). I can't imagine how you have felt for the last year and a half. Almost like living on the edge? I am sorry you or anyone has to go through this. Please take the advise everyone here has giving you and please please write back.
Be careful, though. Leaving may trigger an even worse attack, God forbid. When they can't control you by wheedling and manipulation, violence often follows. Be ultra cautious, keep family and friends close by and aware of your activities.
Leave him. If you stay longer it will only be worse. This is a clear pattern-abuse, apologize, cool off, start it all over. Is that the roller coaster you want to ride.
how about kids? Will he do that to thme as well.
I have this advice for anyone- if your b/f or g/f hits you it is over. Period. Walk out the door and never come back. If you stay he knows he has you. He will see you as weak. He controls you. He can hit you and you crawl back. In his mind, his ego, he says I'm so great she'll be back no matter how hard I hit her.
Leave him. Have the police there when you get your stuff and leave. If he asks why just say you abused me. I deserve better. I don't give second chances when it comes to my safety and self-respect. Goodbye.
Now take charge and do that. The alternative is to be back here in 6 months to a year saying he did it again.
What does your gut tell you to do?
Take a moment to clear your head and really listen to what your heart is telling you to do--without worrying about consequences, hurting his feelings, postponing the wedding, etc.
What did you come up with?
When you first meet people, they usually tell you loud and clearly who they are, you just have to be listening. For whatever reason, you missed the early signs, but you should consider youself fortunate for such a stark picture of himself being presented.
If this itself is not enough to convince you, consider this: if you had kids, would you want them to see that and how would you explain it to them. The answers are of course obvious.
You're lucky - run and throw away your rear view mirror.
I agree with alot of these people, WRITE DOWN WHAT HE DID TO YOU! I did the same when me and my ex broke up 6 months ago and although it still hurts, I can read these things and assure myself that I made the right decision. It's so easy to think of only the good times when you miss someone, but be strong. Everything will be much clearer in hind-sight, just remember to be true to yourself. I understand when you say he controlled everything about you (feelings and all) because I was the same way but it's not worth it and you'll only resent him in the end, but now I feel stronger and I know good things will happen for me...and for you sweetie. God bless! :)
I agree with alot of these people, WRITE DOWN WHAT HE DID TO YOU! I did the same when me and my ex broke up 6 months ago and although it still hurts, I can read these things and assure myself that I made the right decision. It's so easy to think of only the good times when you miss someone, but be strong. Everything will be much clearer in hind-sight, just remember to be true to yourself. I understand when you say he controlled everything about you (feelings and all) because I was the same way but it's not worth it and you'll only resent him in the end, but now I feel stronger and I know good things will happen for me...and for you sweetie. God bless! :)
I agree with the above poster. You have to get away from this man. i'd get some counselling to find out why you would even consider staying with him and why you confuse love with this type of behavior. Love doesn't hurt. To marry him is to agree to a life with an abusive, desperate man.Plus he drinks, that only makes it worse. You deserve better. His behavior was violent and abusive. You should have called the police and had him arrested for injuring you when he ripped the ring off our finger. He has done this in the past to others and now he is doing it to you. Run!
If you marry this guy, you are crazy.....
Run for your life!