made up conversations in my head

[just_so_awake]

I joined this website 16 minutes ago because where i live its 1:27 am and i cant sleep. This happens a lot and probably every night when i do not have a lucid dream where i can control exactly what happens. I cant sleep because im so  awake. Im so awake because it feels as though a million people are speaking to me very quickly. This can be anything such as talking about my friends hamster, chatting to my history teacher about my 12 page essay that i am convinced will get a C for or having an argument with a whole police force. Sometimes I imagine myself doing stuff like getting into a fight or baking a cake. Some scenarios seem plausible whilst others would make people think i was insane. It is as though i am bekng controlled by someone else who is speaking or doing something. It is hard to tell if people actually had this conversation with me or not probably because whilst i am deprived of sleep my brain is getting loads of different messages and cant pick the right one. However in recent tests where i have been feeling this weird hallucinogenic delusions the night before i have done better than i had expected. I do have  a history of being depressed with an addition of anxiety, anorexia, self harm ect. but a month ago i changed my life around completely and have been feeling amazing. There is not a lot of conversation about this made up conversation thingy but i have spoken to my friends and a few of them have experianced similar problems. If anyone knows anything more, is experiancing the same or similar symptoms or just wants to know more please comment because i want to know more about what it is that is making me not sleep.

[Jerry_NJ]

You mention Lucid Dreaming, and I read you to say your are accomplished in the art.

You may find something useful, perhaps you already have, in a brief study of the subject Lucid Dreaming.  I like the book, which has an audio CD which I have listened to many times is by Stephen Laberge of Stanford University USA.  This book may give you even more control of dreaming, thus sleeping.

I can only immagine the confusion you describe - I think it woud drive me "crazy".  

[Caryopteris]

Have you ever tried sleeping with the TV or radio on?  To block out your brain so it stops swirling around and goes in a straight line as it follows what's on TV?  TV is helpful for me and I go to sleep easily this way.  It's not a perfect solution because it is best to sleep in the dark.