That's pretty scary..good on u both for where u are now. I have a son who has encouraged me to quit many times, but I just keep sucking away. Well, I have 7 days now, so I'm just going to keep trying. I really want a cigarette today..hopfully I make it. I'm writing my last paper, and I'm use to having the cigarette with the paper writing as a relief from the stress. If I can make it though today it'll be a really good thing.
Gosh Jim what an inspiring story you have! Congrats, I too smoked since I was fifteen and I watched my Mom & Dad die of emphasema and it was horrible, but it didn't stop me from smoking. We all seem to have that in common. That's why I know its an obsession, I know it's insanity, it the worst addiction there is in my book. And I've kicked alot of things.
I think part of it is genetic also don't you? We must break the cycle. My son quit, I'm so proud of him but I couldn't quit for him either. You must decide for yourself. You cannot do it until the desire to stop is stronger than the desire to go on. I'm rooting and praying for all of us. I have copd and I've even used the excuse that if I'm going to die in a couple of years
I will at least have a cigarette when I'm scared. But I'm scared that I'm going to die from it and Probably will, but I want to beat it first!! So badly!! One day at a time guys that's all we have to do! Love to all,
Hey Jim, I feel what you're going through. Quitting tobacco is tough stuff, but it is doable.
My sister in law is really big into AA. AA basically saved her life. She had numerous addictions regarding drugs and alcohol, and AA helped her break the habits. With that being said, she smokes cigarettes at a pace that I have never witnessed, and drinks a ton of coffee.
With the cigarettes.... like your father, her mother (my mother in law) was a smoker whose respiratory system was greatly compromised, and had been for years. My mother in law couldn't walk 50 feet without becoming winded! It was pitiful.... and yet my sister in law continued to smoke, and even increased the amount she was smoking. Today, my sister in law cannot walk 50 ft without being winded, and she blames it on asthma....yeah, asthma!
I confronted her with this because I have asthma. I asked her were she got her diagnosis, and she didn't have an answer. I asked her what her doctor said about her having asthma and continuing to smoke, and again got no answer. The fact is, she doesn't have asthma. Her lungs are compromised because of smoking, and she uses an over the counter inhaler to clear her lungs so she can smoke.... unbelievable.
Her theory too was that she had given up everything else and was not going to drop this. While she may be clean of alcohol and drugs, she is now killing herself with tobacco and it is a long agonizing death. And honestly, I don't feel sorry for her. Too, at this point, quitting for her is probably a moot point. She is not far from being put on oxygen. (I am had of hearing but can hear her wheeze from about 10 feet away....)
So, in closing.... you're absolutely right. One day at a time. We can only control ourselves, and we can only be in charge of whats happening right now. The past is over and we cannot change that, but we can change the now. Stay in there!!!!
Hi everyone, thanks a for all the wonderful comments and support. I just had a setback and I am trying not to get too bummed out over my slip with smoking. My good friend Scott died yesterday. He went in the hospital last Monday and he died yesterday. He had Hep-C that progressed into Cirrhosis. It was the saddest thing I have ever been through. He was only 38 yrs old.
Anyway that was my lame excuse for smoking again. I really want to stop. I had my last one at 9pm so I have about a half hour right now. I hate myself for this nasty habit. It really scares me when I think about ruining my heart. As I focus on that I absolutly do not want to smoke. It's just that, as soon as I lose focus and without even thinking I have one lit up agian, I say What the?? I hate these....My Heart? My arteries,lungs and picture myself suffering and gasping for air with lung cancer. I don't want to die from smoking. I need a big Neon sign strapped to my head to constantly remind me "DON'T SMOKE YOU IDIOT". I have quit many times and I'll get over the craving hump and I actually have no desire........Then a pipe under the house will break or Someone dies.... just anything real stressful and without a second thought I'm back smoking saying to myself, hey I'll just quit again right? YEAH RIGHT !! Every time it seems harder and harder. Oh well I guess I'm done babbling. When I wake up tomorrow I am gonna ask God to please help me not smoke today. I wish everybody who is also fighting this fight the best of luck and lets do it together just for One day! God bless you all! Have a great night. JimG