as tears fall from my cheeks i bow my head and pray for strength ...the worst part is the empty feeling ,the soul is bruised and life crowds my mind...i sit in silence as the world rages around me ..alone i am in a room filled with people ...hatred consumes ,as fire in my stomach burns ...... thoughts race ,and heart pounds ....this is not life ,its a moment in time ...but for me time has stopped ,and will leave me in pain for eternity .....i raise my fists to shake at the sky,but realize its me im mad at ....