Am I depressed?

[exploringtheabyss]

I am 14 years old and lately have been very sad and upset. I sometimes even cry for no good reason and I get angered and irratated easily. I have been through a lot in the past year my step dad and mom divorced and I went to live with my father and stepmom and I found out my mom is in a relationship with a woman when I know she is not gay. I haven't had the same interest in the things I use to love like song writing I can't get any ideas out and I use to scrapbook and I started playing guitar a while ago but want to gove up. I keep my feelings in usually until im alone in the shower and then I break down and cry.I have normal eating habits still and dont think of suicide I'm actually scared to take any action on that. In school I know enough people but usually plaster on a smile and I am very quiet in school unless with friends. I dont feel happy in many cases for no reason. I have been really tired during the day and Im starting to take naps and I have to question if I should skip school in the morning because I dont care about it and speaking of school I haven't been doing well in my classes things dont come easy to me as they use to. I always just want to stay in my bed and I am afraid of the future I'm getting pressured to know what I want to do and do better in school its just so stressful.I also have mixed feelings on the way I look sometimes I think im so ugly and compare myself to my sister and friends and other times I think im okay looking. I am worried and scared to confront any of my family members about this what should I do I would appreciate any help of any kind. Thank you.

[charlieblack]

"I found out my mom is in a relationship with a woman when I know she is not gay."

its been a year since you posted this, so hopefully youve grown up, i cant believe no one else mentioned this but seriously, if she is in a relationship with a woman clearly she is gay. please act your age, if you cant come to terms with this fact thats one thing, but to say even though you can see she's in a relationship with another woman that she's not gay is ridiculous. there are lots of people who are married 10, 20, 30 even 40 years who finally admit the truth to themselves and everyone else that their gay and come out just because she was married to your dad doesnt mean yeah she's 100% straight, coz some people lie to others and themselves for years.

i personally dont think its right to do this, get over yourself coz most people wouldnt care if your gay or not if they loved you. i have no problems with anyone who is gay having a family but to lie to someone for years, marry them have a family with them, lie to that family is just wrong, youve just destroyed their entire life, marriage, happiness for all those years, as it was all lies. yes you have great kids from that marriage but to ruin someones life like that when they could have had a real lasting marriage (which clearly they didnt get as you were gay and lying for god knows how long)

but as its happened, its happened, hopefully a year has past and youve finally accepted your mum's sexuality, she may have lied about who she was for all those years but hopefully you can now see the real person, who she should have been without all the lying, and you can love that person and their honesty.

i would suggest not skipping school coz as much as you hate it and dont want to be there, you will regret it when you want to find a decent job or maybe even a few years on you may want to go to uni to study after some time off. i personally couldnt stand being at school, i was told id get all straight A's but hated it so much coz of the people there that i wouldnt go in, it took me years to fix what i messed up with night classes and eventually uni in my 20's, just coz i couldnt be bothered, i was depressed dont get me wrong, go see your doc and get some help but also work hard in school even if it bores the sh1t out of you coz you'll need it one day i swear, unless you only want crap, dead end jobs for the rest of your life

[depressed13]

i know what your going thru if you need to talk im here

[luciana22]

it's important to talk to someone that you thrust ,for begining,and then you shuld go to a specialist from school(if you have one).it's not a shame that you need moral support,everybody needs...you are young..if you don't feel like doing sports  or other fun things,push yourself to do something that you like.at the beginig it won't be quite fun but it'l important to fill your time,and leave the prolems behind.

[cole1997]

Hello,im 14 and im worried i may be depressed. Im too afraid to talk to anyone professional or my mum or family because i have this fear that they will call me pathetic/dramatic. I do feel pathetic because some people on here have been through alsorts and all thats happened to me is an alcoholic father! i feel so alone,and i keep crying alot. I used to love p.e and enjoy going to after school sports but now i hate both. I keep arguing with all my friends,everyone annoys me and winds me up all the time and im embarrassed about the way i look,i used to enjoy drama and slowly im not enjoying it no more,im tired of being so alone,i dont know what to do,depression runs inmy family and i have all the symptoms :/..

[grannienannie]

you are too young too be having so much on your mind...you should try to get over feeling like that...you should be enjoying school and having fun with your friends...if no one can make you happy you have to make yourself happy...bueaty is not on the out but on the in dont compare yourself and your looks to others...that is not what save someones life..its personality and education...you are the future...to help those that feel like you do now its you and your education that will make a statement one day for someone with the same feelings...if your mom is happy..find your happiness too by helping someone else and you might just find a friend that feel the same as you do then you can help each other.. feel better..

[capegirlnoshoes]

You've listed some classic symptoms of depression, which isn't surprising considering all this family upheaval you're going through.  It is scary to talk to people about this, but trust me, things are better if you do.  Sometimes people freak out at first but deep down most people really want to help and will do so as soon as they figure out how to.  You might want to talk to a doctor and see if you can be referred to a good counsellor to talk about all these things.  They can give you advice on how to cope with the junk life throws at you.  It'd also probably be good if you told your family how all this goings-on is affecting you, because they may not have realised.  
It seems like you're moderately depressed to me - moderate depression is highly treatable but it's extremely difficult to do that by yourself.  So try to steel yourself to reach out - it'll be hard at first but I think you'll be glad you did.  
Good luck!