Confused

[Geo514]

When i was 14 i suffered from severe depression. I tryed killing my self when i was 15 but my friend called the police and i was put in the behavioral health unit for a week. It seemed to have help me alot. my depression slowly went away and i felt happy again but now my depression is back and i don;t know what to do this time. Can any one help?

[Geo514]

My son will be 10 months next week and yes I am a single mother I am only 18 so i still live at home. My mom is very supportive of me and has gotten over the whole teenage mother thing and helps me out a lot. I think I am hesitant to tell my mom because she still brings up things from my past when she found out i was depressed. I am tired of her bringing up the past when i am trying to forget it so i guess i don't want to hear what she has to say about it this time. She has noticed that I have been sad lately and thinks i need to get out more.but I just don't feel comfortable telling her what I''m going through again.

I don't get very much sleep because my son has really bad eczema so he doesnt sleep through the night because he is so itchy. he wakes up 5-6 times a night. When he naps during the day I don't usually sleep because i have so much to do and now that my son is getting older he is more hyper and more demanding for my attention so i can't do much while he is awake.

I don't go out with my friends very often for a couple reason.1. I graduated early so most of my friends were at school all day so they could only hang out at night and 2. Every one thinks so badly of teen mom. like we leave our babys at home with our parents while we go out and party and have fun like teenagers do but i don't want people to think of me like that. my mom always offer to watch my son but i feel bad when i leave her with the responsability of taking care of MY son. So i stay home and take care of him like i should and i love him very much i don't mind not beng able to party. Having a baby changed my life for the better and I'm happy to grow up and get a life started. All my friend understand my situation so they come and visit me at my house. Now that they are all graduated we hang out during the when I take my son out to the mall or a park or some thing.

As I type my situation it makes me even more confused as to why I feel so sad. I have a great family and great friends, I have my future plans worked out for the most part and my life is back on track, I just don't under stand these feeling of depression. I think the hardest thing I am dealing with right now is my sons father. He is also a teeneger and being a guy he didn't grow up as fast as I did. He asked for a paternity test and once the results came back that he was the father he still didn't care. His parents are involved and help out but he just refuses to do any thing. He gets pissed of any time any one even mentions caleb to him. His parents can't sit down and talk to him because he is too tempermental and hard headed to care. I don't understand how some one can just ditch there kid but I have tried to not let it bother me. I no i love my son and i can take care of him with out his dad. I don't usually even think about it unless some one brings it up.

I suppose that could be why I'm depressed but I feel even more depressed then I did the last time and this situation isnt even close to my previous. Maybe it's because this time it affects my son in a negative way and I want my son to have a happy life and with his dad acting like this I'm affraid Caleb will be emotionally affected and I don't want that to happen

[meniere135]

How old is your son? Are you a single mother?  Stressors can be subtle - your responsibilities are increasing.  Hormones fluctuate.  Are you sleeping enough and eating healthy foods?  

Why are you hesitant to tell your mom?  Is it because she was upset about you having a baby and you feel like you have to appear strong as if nothing is wrong?  Maybe it will help you just to vent out on here.  We all have to help each other through life.  We can't do it alone.  I have three kids ranging in age from 11-17.  It was brutal when they were little.  Kids are very demanding.  We moms go from worrying about just ourselves to 24 hour worrying about our kids.  It's not easy.  In my case, my husband never helped me.  He acted like "what's the big deal, at least you don't have to go to work".  Well, I worked for several years part time until my third child.  It was easier going to work.

Now that the kids are older, the physical demands are gone.  I can finally sleep and they can help themselves for the most part.  I don't know your situation.  I'm just throwing out some "mom" info and showing you that it ain't easy!!!!!  And maybe without you knowing it, having a son might be wearing you down somewhat.  And is the dad in the picture?  I'll look for your posts if you'd like to talk.  Hope you feel better!

[Geo514]

Telling my mom is what I'm having a hard time doing. I told my best friend but she is going throu similar problems so she can't help much but she is there for me. I think the only reason my hospital stay helped is because i had to admit to my self and my mom that i had a problem and it made me feel much better after my mom knew every thing i was going threw but i feel like circumstances are different this time because i knew why i was depressed last time. this time i don't I'm cluless as to why i feel this way. I have a son now , my life has stabled out and things were going great till one day my depression came back with avengence.

[meniere135]

Tell someone close to you that you need help again.  The teen years are a very common time for depression to rear its ugly head.  Don't hesitate to get help.  They seem to think that talking with a therapist and medication combined (if needed) works the best.  Go see a doctor.  Your life is just as important as everyone else's!  My nephew is going through the same thing right now.  He had it in early high school and it went away.  He felt fine for several years.  Now he feels he's having trouble again.  He's started on medicine (took a few tries to get the right combination) and sees a therapist once a week.  He's doing well.