I feel guilty

[Amyblakeburke]

I don't feel like I deserve to be alive, whenever I see anything about someone dying I always ask myself why them? I do nothing. I deserve to be dead. I want to be. I have written 3 suicide notes but never had the guts to do it. HELP

[Motowngirl67]

I his submit before i was done.... Sorry:)  Also, if you are really thinking of suicide you should seek out some professional help. I don't want you to mistake my commments as anytype of professional help. I am not a Psyc doctor and do not have a degree or claim to have all the answers. I just want you to know that there are people out there willing to listen and have an open mind. Anonomously and unjudgemental... See can't even spell correctly:)  LOL Put a smile on your face and work reallly hard on finding something that interest you something you can look forward to every day. Wheather it is going online and checking your messages, or some hobbies, crafts, reading a good boook, watching a series on TV, Anything.

[Motowngirl67]

Hello Amyblakeburke, I am sorry to read that you feel so sad and that you do nothing. I am sure that is not true. I have been disabled for two years and struggle everyday with depress on and it is hard to get up everyday but the one thing that saves me is thinking of how others would feel if I was gone.  Even the small group of people that I have touched in my life it would make and impact, a ripple in life tht should not be there.  It would make others sad and in turn a chain of events that you could not imagine. So, by not following through with the suicide is a strong and difficult choice on your part, it show that you are strong and you are able to LIVE!  Please use this site and talk about what you are truely feeling, instant message me if you like I would love to get to know you.  Everyone has done "Somethng" that makes an impact in the world! Iwould like to hear more about you. How old are you? Do you have a family? Do you work? Go to school?

[mishymoshymarcy]

Hello again. As i have also experienced this, i know iit is hard. I also thought that too, that i do nothing. Well to be exact i still do alot actually. I told myself this everyday that i am only a lazy girl who sits around  all day and does nothing, so what is the point of me living and wouldnt matter if i died because i am useless. I have moments where i realise that life is truly worth living. and when i look around me i see many happy and sad people but thats ok, because its reality. People die everyday, some accidentally and for some thier time has come. I am not saying anyone deserves to die, because they dont. but these things happen... and i dont beloeve that life would be 'life' if we had no chaos in the world. Lifes not perfect...
And for the suicidal notes and the 'i deserve to die', suicide is not the option and i am glad you do not have the courage to do it. consider that a good thing. i hope you soon realise that no matter what happens that every life is precious. That includes yours. :-)