I think I'm depressed, though I really don't have a reason why?

[BlackRose98]

I have really low self-esteem but I'm not fat. I sleep longer now and I'm more tired and slower than usual, and yesterday my sister and I got in a big fight and I was thinking suicidal thoughts. I don't know why, they just came up. Then I listened to some music to calm me down, and I was planning to ask my mom about it, but how can I? I'm afraid she will think I'm crazy and get real real scared :(

[Bambinoonice]

Awe I'm glad good lucky let me know what happens xxx

[BlackRose98]

Thanks. I will definately try to talk to my parents about it, :)

[Bambinoonice]

Lol it's ok trust me it feels better after the dry and cuddles I have a 12year old brother and ye gets everything and anything he want and yup your spot on with the little things I went in a rage and get really upset because my boyfriend wouldn't put me as his gf on fb lol I completely understand about not knowing how to start talking just try and get your most understanding parent alone and just say mam/dad I need to talk to you I don't feel too well I'm kinda depressed and just explain why and what it feels like. Alot of things changed for me in my house hold(for the good) when I told my dad xxxx

[BlackRose98]

Hi. I guess I kinda have a reason why, but it is very small. Then again, the smallest things effect people, am I right? I'm kinda shy at school and I only really talk to my friends which are; let me count...about 5 to 6 people. I don't know how I can talk to my mom, but I'll try to make the effort. Also, my parents expect so much from me, and sometimes, I just feel like I can never meet their expectations. I just watch my oh-so-perfect little sister get all the praise and I just sit there, all alone, feeling as if I'm being suffocated inside. :( Thanks for everything though, I will try to talk to my mom, but I'm usually mad at her and I'm afraid I will cry; I usually keep my feelings in and I haven't let them out for so long, I just think it will be a devastating crying spell. But I'll do it. I know I have to.

[Bambinoonice]

Heyyy :) hope your doing well! I'm 18 and ive been depressed in the past and didn't have a reason everyday I thought about suicide over little things my dad found out well he noticed that I just lay about in the dark woke up ate back to bed kinda thing. And he cam to confront me about it and I screamed that I was suicidal at him he took me too the doctors and that was it I never went back and have been ok since I think yu need to tell someone so you can share your feelings don't be scared to because it does have a bigger effect than you think I have been with my boyfriend for two years and only now can I talk to him about anything and everything cuz I'm not scared to talk I'm more open with people cuz I know I can share with them what's going on in my head. Just tell your mam maybe she had the same thing when she was younger you never know. She will be devestated that yu feel this way and shocked but shell want to talk and let you know everythings ok.... WHICH IT IS. <3 much live message me if you ever want to talk xx

[BlackRose98]

Hi. I've been better, but right now I'm just tired. I was disturbed in my sleep at 7 am, and I couldn't go back to sleep whatsoever. I've been a little irritable, though I have little energy right now. Thank you for posting to this, it really really means so much to me. :)

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