i need help fast plz

[DJordan]

I am a 14 year old boy i used to live with my grandmother but then i moved in with my dad i moved up to tenesee with him and things went great for like 3 weeks but the we got in our first fight he got mad over little stuff and just blew up at me i was talking to him normal saying i was sry for it and he hollered at me and i said back u dont have to be so mean i was saying i was sry and he jumped up outta his chair and shoved me to the group which got me really mad so i got up and started hollering at him and we fought for like 30 mins till my stepmom stoped us it wasnt a fist fight it was a arugment but he told me i wasnt his son and i told him good cause i dont want to be your son. Now it seems like everyday he remeinds me that my mom is a hore because she does escort services and that my grandmother is a crackhead and i keep trying to tell him it doesnt help when u remind me of what they do it only makes me feel worse so anyways yesterday we got in our biggest fight yet and he told me i was just a liablilty and that i was the worse so ever and then he hit me across my head as hard as he could mulitple time and my dad is a very big man he left knots on my head and the past few weeks he keeps telling me nobody likes me and nobody cares about me and how he doesnt want me around and im thinking on just running away and never coming back i just dont know what to do i have very bad depression and i have almost killed myself 3 times now but then i relized that i have to much to live for i just dont know if i can keep putting up with this i feel like the whole world hates me and i cant concetrate on my school work or anything else i had to move away from all my friends and my dad makes me do homeschool now so i have no friends to talk to or hang out with i have a little bro but he is only 9 and a big sister but she hates me she tells me all the time that she hates me and she like to throw stuff at me and hit me and if i try to say anything to her her BF gets in my face and tells me he will beat my face in if i disrespect my sister and she is the one hitting me what do i do im so lost im scared of what might happen in the future.

[sadteen17]

that's awful! that's disgusting how you're being treated and i know i can't say "you shouldn't stand for it" but i know you have to, maybe you could try ringing the police? or some kind of child abuse line? you can't stay like this, it's complete abuse. but you're right, you have so much to live for! i'm 14 too and although i feel completely differently i lot i know deep down that i have to make my life worth living. i understand why you would attempt suicide but please don't, if you call the police or some child abuse number they could have you with a new family! this is really bad, you deserve so much more from what you're been through. Try and get a job, as soon as you're old enough move as far away as possible and start a new life all over again. if you're against leaving them try talking to them nicely, explain how you feel and explain how depressed you are. if they're true family they will understand and help you, but if not i'm sorry but i would definitely move away.
if you ever need to talk, there's so many people here who i'm sure would talk to you! including me:-)
but please post again saying how you are!

[ku111]

Hang in there!  Is your step-mom of any help to you?  If you have been away from your dad for a while you may need some time to reconnect.  Hitting is never ok.  You be the bigger person and you act the way you want to be treated.  If he doesn't so be it.  Maybe the two of you need to go some place alone and talk.  Maybe you need to hear his side and he needs to hear yours.  You have 4 years and they will go fast.  Concentrate on your education and learn all you can.  Have a plan of what you want to do.  As soon as you can get a job-get one and save money.  Even putting a little back will add up to a lot and will help you when you leave.  I tell my son to find a place to stash money and tell no one what you have and where.  Always.  For a rainy day or something special.  When you think that $20/week x4 is $80 and $80 x12=$960 and $960 x 10 years is $9,600.  A lot of money with little effort.  Try and talk and see if you can work this out.  Do not leave without a safe place to go.  Being on the streets at your age only leads to much trouble and dangers.  Keep me posted!

[DJordan]

i do homeschooling because i failed last year because i missed to many days of school and no one helps me with my studies i do it all on my own and im not sure why he says im not his son i think he says it to hurt my feelings and when he first took me in things were great im not sure if its cause he is stressed or not and i dont want to get child pretective agency involed ive done that before and they didnt belive when i was living with my stepdad but things have change and yesterday him and my stepmom were fighting over what to do with me so i dont know where im going or what im gonna do