I have no remorse for anything

[mapi2004]

I used to always think that I was a very nice person who always felt bad for things, and who wanted the best for other people. But I've come to realize that I dont care about anyone exept for myself. All of the bad things ive done ive felt no remorse.
ex:
- I stole 4 notebooks from a class I had from students (who failed the notebook test because of this).
- I cant stop stealing makeup. Im obcessed with it, and its unhealthy. yesterday I  threw away a bag of makeup because i need to stop.
- I have a boyfriend who seriously treats me like a princess and does anything for me and he even got me a promise ring, and i have cheated on him numerous times. I cant tell if i love him, or if i just want to use him.
-When my mom got cancer and she was crying i didnt even want to confort her. I tried, because i didnt want her to be mad and hit me or something.

I want to feel bad for things but i seriously dont. I cant think of anything that i've done that i feel bad for. Im really scared that I will become a murderer or something.

[sweetpea03]

If you are not being completely honest with your therapist or parents, you need to do that now. They can't help you if they don't know what's going on. You can tell them what you wrote on here and ask for help.

[mapi2004]

I go to a therapist, but i can only see her once more before my parents are forcing me to move to colombia. Its really embarassing and i dont know what to tell her

[sweetpea03]

Have you ever been to counseling? I do recommend it as to be able to talk to someone about all of your feelings and what you are going through to figure out what may be going on, whether that be a chemical imbalance or something in your past that set you off. It can be very helpful for you. Hope it goes well.