Sexually confused

[wow321]

ok so here is goes i have been confused about my sexuality for almost 2 years now im 13 and i dont know whats going on i get this weird feeling in my penis when i think or see penises or muscely guys i dont think it an erection but i think my penis does get more sensitive(it scares me becuase it kinda feels good) i have had weird urges to stick things in my rectum and had weird thoughts about giving oral to my guy friends. but then again when i was little i remeber looking at my cousins penises and stuff and getting nothing from it i used to look at my step sisters boobs(well they werent there yet) but i still remeber laughing adn i walso remember thinking about sex at a very early age i always masturbaited to girls i dont know why i just did form the begging i started to watch porn when i was 11 or 12 and ever since around that time i have been weird about my sexuality my mom says im straight i wanna be striaght every thing in my mind tells me to be but i kinda feel like i have lost intrest or something my mom says im just obsession over theings and makeing connections becuase its my greatest fear to be gay and i am obsessive like i was told i was going to hell when i was younger and cryed for days and stuff and i did always kind of feel a less manly then every other kid in the family i am a mommas boy and i love my mom im an only child and my mom says i only feel different becuase i was teh youngest in the family and i was sick as a child and my mom never pushed me to be strong an toughf i play football now so i guess you could say i have toughednd up. last night i had my arm around a girl at a halloween party and i felt like i was the man but then i think of my weird thought s and get a sinking feeling i feel so F'ed in the head im really scared im gay my mom says she never noticed any sign when i was little and she said if she did she would have gotten me into teh gay community when i was younger so life would be easyer she told my i masturbaited to girls very young but now i feel like i lost interest i get erections from pron but i feel like it takes a bit to get me going. any way i had crushes on girls in grade 1 2 3 4 5 6 but now i feel kinda left out because when i do think sexual thoughts about girls i have to try to think about them but for no reason i get these weird thoughts and i get awkward around some guys and never around girls like i see a guy and feel weird inside and try to avoid him and stuff becuase i feel like im atracted to him witch bugs me alot i really need help with this its wreacking my life.can some one help me with whats going on mabye im sexually confused from watching porn at a young age  and the reason i watched it was because i wanted to know waht a vagina looked like. but then i remember i dunno maybe in my sex lust when i first started watching porn i looked up penises and desided i didnt like them but nowni feel all screwed up its like i have to watch lesbian porn and get a erection from it to prove to my self im not gay but then something happens and i feel the same way and i do have mager anxiaty about things so any ways please help me out.

[kennzz05]

im serious though you gotta stop with the porn if you cant you may need help seriously there are plenty of people that become addicted to it and it runs there life

[wow321]

thanks man i know my mom says i over think things to im gunna just take teh ride slowly and enjoy life but as far as i know il just go with being striaght

[kennzz05]

dude your way overthinking this your too young to be fixating on sex just live your life and things will start making more sense as you grow up the mastrabating thing is ok and normal but stay away from the porn as it will make it hard for you to be in any real relationship either gay or straight.  porn removes the love from having sex and really at its most basic roots sex is for having babies not just for feeling good it should be reserved for someone you truly care about and  perhaps want to spend the rest of your life with You should be able to see just from what youve written how much porn is f/u/c/k/in with your mind so lay off the porn keep spankin your monkey and talk to your parents unless of course your mom knows your into porn and allows it in which case she obviously is lacking in parental skills (sorry, but true) hope this helps questions, im me