why do I always mess things up?, I always aim for goals that are almost impossible. I am just the wrong girl in the family, I am not a nice person. Well I thought I was a really good person but I am not. Heck, I cant even take care of myself, I wouldn't survive if there was a zombie apocalypse like the video game THE LAST OF US. I am soo talkative and gullible. I really want to study in Johannesburg next year but I don't even know if I am responsible enough to live on my own. I can barely cook. Since I am such a weirdo I doubt I will have any friends. Recently I realised I hate my body so I eat twice a day. its actually really helping. Is it healthy?. This afternoon, I really thought of suicide, but I will go to hell. I really need help. I have never expressed my pain like this.
And who says you're a bad person? I think you're really cool and smart. You remind me of myself, though I'm not as smart and cool as you! Since u have the tendency to do goal setting, it's actually very good ( I also make over realistic goals sometimes) but hey, only with such goals will you really get something done, do something great. Even if u only achieve part of the goal, it will still be good cuz the goal is high to start with!
Don't worry so much, give urself a break! Haha relax and live the life man!
Mae West: you only got one life, but if you do it right, once is enough! And right does not mean achieving ur goals. It means doing things that make you happy and make you like your life. Simply, live it!
And dun think about suicide okay! You only got one life!!!! And running away will not solve anything. Just take a deep breath, tell your self you can do it, give yourself a courage boost and voila you've done it! You will be amazed how unnecessary small worries are once you do it. Everything will go according to plan but if it doesn't, make it go according to plan! No one said you can't make mistakes in life!
I think you're pretty nice person! I'm Sophia from Singapore btw! Haha I wanna be your friend so if u need help, just email me at ***@****!!!!!! Alright best of luck bye! X