i think you need to see a theropist and get put on some meds for this and so does your friends if they are suicidal..
really... and i don't want medss.
you might just need to speak with a thearopist about this but you and ur friends really need to seek help
When you are at the lowest, it doesn't help to hear that you need meds or a therapist, or you need to get out or exercise, blah, blah. You need to hear that you will have good days and you will learn how to have more good days than bad. You need to stop the bad loop playing in your head (I'm worthless, nothing will ever change, I'm stupid no one likes me). Every time, replace these thoughts with positive affirmations. This builds new pathways in your brain that you will automatically switch to the more you do it. Don't discount meds or therapy. I can't tell you things will get better (who can?) but life is worth living. You're only here for a very short time (seems like forever) but you'll be dead before you know it, so why rush it? Life can be amazing, find your small happiness every day. I know you can do it because I've been doing it for 40 years. Hugs, you got this!