Depression Or Something Else?

[BrokenAndDefeated]

I can't stand my life anymore. I begun to have suicidal thoughts and i do not really talk to anyone anymore because i don't feel comfortable talking to anyone.  My friends barely acknowledge me anymore and even when I try to talk to them or make conversation they either ignore me or shut me down. I begun to feel paranoid around my classmates as they make fun of me for what I choose to read or draw in my own time. I feel crazy because i see things that I know for a fact other people cannot see. I spend a lot of time alone and the only thing that makes me feel ok is cutting or listening to music but the latter is not working anymore. I don't really know what to do anymore. I have been to counselling but talking doesn't help. My mum already has taken me to the doctors because the school found out about my cuts and I lied about everything so that I would not be considered seriously. I don't know what to do anymore. help?

[BrokenAndDefeated]

Thanks for the advice I'll give it a shot

[CRSeaside]

Dear friend, pick someone you want to be honest with to confide your fears.
  Sometimes we build walls. Other times we act too sensitive.  
   Talking to someone will help. But you're the one who puts the effort in to the discussion.  What do you like to read? Draw ?  
  People are different. That's why different authors appeal.
  You are an individual. Special.  You have a right to be happy.
  Stop cutting. If you need to feel emotions, ask your folks to take you to a hospital where you can visit the sick.  Make up your mind to help someone.
  It's up to you. You can do this!  Pamela