I've been feeling depressed and I don't know who to talk to.

[Shakerah_H]

I'm sixteen. At school, I'm known for being the girl who always has a smile on my face. But inside, I feel lonely. I have feelings that I'm ugly and fat and stupid. Also, I don't have a father in my life at the moment that's been really bothering me. Because of this, I been thinking of self-harming myself like cutting. I'm really embarrassed that I feel this way. I confided in some of my friends in the beginning but stopped because I didn't want to feel like a burden. To make things worse, I recently found out that I failed more than three classes this school year. I have a lot of guilt and feelings of suicide and I  don't know to do. I want to to talk to someone, but it's hard for me to open up. If any anyone has advice for me, I would really appreciate it.

[Zephnyr]

Hello there shakera somethings similar here too. I too dont have a love of father. I am always smiling boy but inside i have lonely feelings that no one can ever see. I feel great that i am not the only one lonely like i felt. Other people thinks that i might have lots of friends but in reality almost none but i try to make myself happy by making others laugh by joking or doing silly things. Sometimes i felt doing suicides too but never tried because i want to know the special out of me that is to give something to the world instead of being burden. Best wishes...