Okay so here's my problem. I'm 16. I've had Tourettes since as long as I can remember. I know I have it, because I had to "tic" my whole life. Like flex a muscle until I feel the sufficient amount of pain, cough until I feel the sufficient amount of pain in my throat, and so on. I'll have to blink and squeeze down as hard as I can and even flick the nerve that you hit on your "funny bone" which *****, but it's a urge that I can't resist even if I hate it. I tic like every 5 seconds when I'm at home in my room. When I was little I'd have to bang my head until I felt pain in my skull, and bang my knees together extremely fast. And I thought I was insane for the longest time, but then I looked online, and finally realized Tourettes fit the bill perfectly.
But my problem with getting help is, I have extremely bad social anxiety. To the point where I can barely get friends at all. And in turn, I don't tic that much in public, which is good. I can usually go all day in school without doing a noticeable tic, only small ones no one will see. But then I get an explosion of tics when I get home, like all the ones suppressed during the day. It's frustrating and annoying. And lately I've had a vocal tic that involves breathing in and kind off making a weird noise and it's so frequent and violent that I get really dizzy if I can't keep it under control.
And my mom took me to the doctor last week, because she knows I have it because I tic bad at home. And the doctor was quick to assume I didn't have it, because I wasn't doing anything right then. But I was too nervous to tic because of my social anxiety. I'm great at keeping it in control around other people. So yeah, he said I'm good, which I'm far from.
So I'm wondering if there's any way to be diagnosed without the doctor being able to observe my tics, like I got a brain scan when I was little, and never got the results. I'm not gonna be able to just relax or even tell the doctor that I don't do it around other people, but I know I have it. It was like when I watched videos of people with Tourettes, it was so clear, I have some of the same tics and everything. I really want help, but I'm not gonna tic in from of other people. Any help would be appreciated.