Lately I've been really struggling with the side effects I have been noticing from quite some time now regarding Concerta. I am very much into holistics and finding the natural cure for everything. I'm taking Concerta 54mg but I have noticed although it works better than when not taking it at all (which I attribute probably to the withdrawals), it also definitely doesn't work as well as it first did in the beginning. I have been taking it since January of this past year. I started off with the smallest dosage and went up in mgs every so often because like most...our bodies grew accustomed and we needed to up the dosage. However, 54mg is the highest dosage and I'm a little at a loss for what to do. I decided to go down to a 36mg in an attempt to ween myself off at one point. I took that dosage for about a week when I decided to try and stop cold turkey. And so I did, but found myself overwhelmed by the withdrawals and so I started back up on the 54mgs thinking the week holiday would again help reset my body's immunity to it. It did not.
I find myself torn between wanting to ween off and replacing the drug entirely with a holistic, safe, non synthetic approach and upping my dose because that period of withdrawal gets in the way of work and life responsibilities. I moved away for work last Sunday and I have managed to complete 1 week of training in my new career. However, I believe that had Concerta worked properly, that I would've been able to concentrate much better with better mental focus. Like I mentioned before, I have the 54mg which I'm continuing to refill every month and then I have that 36 that I mentioned that I wanted to go to but never finished. I almost know that it wouldn't be wise to take it upom myself to take the two 54 and 36 together but I just want to succeed and I feel as though that MAY help me.
I feel lethargic from the moment I wake, and it only piles on until very late after a full day's of training and homework. Vision is blurry and almost as if things narrow in and get dark around the training I'm trying to pay attention to. The headaches are extremely debilitating also. The part that scares me the most is that when I'm extremely tired, toward the end of the day...I start to see things. I think it's half due to the drugs, half due to being delusional from being so tired.
I could also add that the training takes care of accomodations as it's in another city. However, because I am put in a hotel room, eating appropriately is very hard. Prepackaged or premade everything essentially. Im worried that my health is suffering and I understand that this is necessary as training and it'll naturally be more stressful but I want to not crumble under stress and somehow find ways to make it manageable.
All this to say I need help and don't know where to look or what to do. I know I am extremely into holistics and extremely into everything natural but weening myself off scares me and I don't want it to affect my state of mind and/or jeopardize my state of mind anymore than now.
I know that was a lot to read but feedback is greatly appreciated :)