Well, well, it could be real and then it could be just perceived by you as real.
Only a voice activated recording device would reveal the
The biggest issue is learning not to take intrusive thoughts seriously. Treating them as spam, will be a good start.
The moment you "try" hard not to have them,...you got it;
It gives the intrusive thoughts more strength, so it becomes a self-perpetuating pattern.
The unconscious mind has very little logic and double negatives do not equal a positive, ie:
I will not have negative thoughts does not equal I will have positive thoughts.
This is simply because the unconscious works with concepts, more like photos and images, so when you use a negative concept + not, all is recorded is the image of the negative concept.
The statement :"I will not get any fatter", records as fatter, since that is the image retained in the unconscious mind.
However the statement: "I'm fit and healthy" might serve better as an affirmation. Present tense and positive (no negatives).
This is just a small piece of the puzzle.
You could also benefit from CRT therapy, perhaps with someone who has both clinical psychology and hypnosis background.
The other suggestion is to get a proper medical evaluation.
From what you mentioned in your post, it sounds like symptoms of OCD and if you have any apprehension
about medications, do not let this prevent you from getting evaluated.
There are a number of natural approaches which may
offer more curative possibilities than medications.
Actually 90% of OCD patients relying just on their meds,
will return back to the same symptoms or worse, if they stop their meds.
You have to make a decision to free yourself from this.
Hello~I remember reading in a natural medical journal that people under high anxiety or stress will have these unwanted thoughts, they don't even want them, but they just pop up and the more you try to ignore them, the worse they get. Lots of folks that are in the midst of a nervous break-down have them, it is emotionally induced, no one really knows why however.
I would suggest adding a good, high potency B vitamin to your diet, these are the stress vitamins and can have a huge impact on your nervous system.
I know this will seem ridiculous, but, I would also try a chiropractor, you may have some pinched nerves in your neck and they could be pressing on certain areas that cause this impulsive behavior, also, you might try acupuncture, there have been great results with it in all areas, especially emotionally.
I hope you get the relief you are seeking soon. God bless you.