I've been having the strangest sensations for many years now.
It starts up out of seemingly nowhere and can continue for up to an hour... If I choose for it to.
I've decided to write about it because I'm experiencing it now, for the first time in months and it has me intrigued.
It begins with all surrounding sounds becoming amplified. Everything I'm hearing has much more presence than it usually would - the tapping of my keyboard as I type; the whirring of the fans in my computer; my own breath, etc.
At the same time however, it all seems partially muffled. Like it's all very imperative, but there's no clarity to any of it. It's just loud noise. Certain sounds seem faster than they should be and repeat themselves. Reverberating.
A strong change in the way I feel, physically, sets in. I gain an overwhelming sense of weight in my body. Of density. Everything from my hands, to my feet feel... Dense. Thick. Heavy. And soft. It's not a numb sensation, but that is the closest thing I can relate to it. When I lift my hand, it feels as though gravity is stronger than it should be. I can move it, but it doesn't feel as if it belongs to me anymore. I feel detached from myself.
My thought process stays intact. I do feel a slightness of fear wash over me when this happens however. This disconnect from reality, a sense of... drifting, is ever present.
If I choose to stand and move around or even willfully try to break from this state, it will usually fade away and things will return to normal.
I think this is what happened the first few occasions when I was younger, as I was probably frightened, but each time it reoccurs I try to understand more about it. Embrace it. It's not a negative feeling, but it is very otherworldly and difficult to comprehend. Something like a cross between daydream and meditation, I like to imagine. So busy and resonant but still, peaceful.
Coming to the end of this topic, I'm slowly emerging from it. I think it has been from all of the thinking and movement of my hands. The best way to study it seems to be by making as little movement as possible and staying calm.
Has anyone experienced this before?
If not, I hope someone finds this an interesting read and I will continue to ponder. Cheers.