Hi typex , from what you have said you need to sit down with your Family Doctor , Please don't hold back any longer , what you need to do is let it all out with him/her they will listen to you and give you all the help you need , but you must take that first step , getting it off your chest will be a big relief plus they will treat you accordingly ,
Please take care , the help is there for you please use it ,
Excerpt from Nutritional Healing - Serotonin...
"Serotonin deficiency signs/symptoms:
Obsessive compulsive tendency
Think about the same things over & over again
Self destructive, masochistic or suicidal thoughts/plans
Low self esteem/confidence
Sleep problems/light sleeper
Use these substances to improve mood & relax
Feel worse in and dislike dark weather
Chronic pain (e.g. headaches, backaches, fibromyalgia)
Antidepressants or 5-HTP improve mood
Family history of depression/anxiety/OCD/eating disorders"
Excerpt from Integrative Psychiatry - Serotonin...
"The following factors can cause low serotonin levels:
Artificial sweeteners (aspartame)
Dietary deficiencies of nutrient co-factors
Ecstasy, Diet Pills, and certain medications
Hormone Imbalances (thyroid, adrenal, estrogen)
Lack of exercise
Lack of sunlight
Problems converting tryptophan to Serotonin
Problems with Digestion
Stress and Anger
High Cortisol Levels
Once your natural serotonin levels are low enough to cause syptoms it is very difficult to significantly raise serotonin levels enough by food alone. SSRI's or selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors and SNRIs, serotonin and norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors do not actually increase the amount of serotonin molecules in the brain. SSRI’s are thought to block the reabsorption (reuptake) of serotonin by certain nerve cells in the brain. This theoretically leaves more serotonin available in the brain. However if you have low serotonin to begin with these medications either will not work well, or work for a while then "poop out".
Natural serotonin supplements are likely to be the most effective means to raise serotonin levels in the brain while being safe and without the side effects of anti depression medications. Derived from seeds of Griffonia simpicifolia, a native African plant, 5-HTP, or 5-hydroxy tryptophan, is a safe dietary supplement that introduces higher levels of tryptophan into the blood stream which then enter the central nervous system and facilitate the needed synthesis of serotonin.
Lifestyle Changes to increase Serotonin:
Get plenty of exercise (30 minutes at least three times a week)
Eat regularly throughout the day.
Get plenty of natural sunlight
Manage stress and negative emotions
Get 6-8 hours of quality sleep a night
Set time aside for fun and relaxation
Take a multivitamin daily
Prayer and Meditation
Take a serotonin supplement"