I am pretty much 120 pounds overweight now, and I was actually quite skinny 6 years ago.
I believe now that I have become a severe food addict. Well, I actually think it's not so much the food, but whatever "reward" my brain gives me from fat, salty, heavy foods. I'm often asked why I don't drink diet soda or fat free frozen yogurt instead of regular ice cream, they don't understand that's because my intense anxiety about food isn't relieved unless I eat the real stuff. (and I also have a psychiatric condition called Depersonalization disorder, which is horribly aggravated --- look it up ---)
See, when I cut back on eating, and go on a very health 6 small meal per day diet, I become mentally insane...almost literally...my mind races at 400 mph over the extreme cravings for a fat heavy meal...I even have dreams about pizza and such! And then I fail after just a few days of extreme torment.
I am become very unhealthy, and desperately want to drop 100 lbs. But I am finding it literally one million times harder than quitting smoking - and I was a heavy smoker. I have truly come to the point to where I believe I will just have to start smoking again for a year in order to lose the weight, and then quit smoking once I've lost it (again, quitting smoking is infinitesimally easier than losing weight).
So I don't know how to replace these chemicals in my brain that offer me satisfaction after that big plate of spaghetti and meatballs, or that big bowl of ice cream, or that 20 ounce soda. I have never done hard drugs, but I would imagine this is how heroin withdrawal feels. And I'm not exaggerating.
I guess any advice would be nice.