Is anyone having a hard time simply moving on?
When I found out I was pregnant, I was absolutely shocked. My husband and I have only been married for 3 months, he has three amazing kids from a previous marriage. We did not want them to feel like they were getting pushed aside, so we made to choice for me go on birth control until our family adjusted to our marriage. We should have decided sooner..
I went to the doctor and to our surprise, pregnant. We were pregnant. This made is all so happy, and suddenly our mindset had changed. We wanted our baby, and we were falling in love. The kids were too..heck..even the ex wife was excited. Especially me though. I was in love with my little baby. 8 weeks pregnant, the bleeding started. I called my doctor, they told me not to worry. It just felt in my heart something was wrong. I kept telling my husband I knew something wasn't right. We changed doctors. Immediately they did an ultrasound, my 8 weeks sac was only measuring 5 weeks. I insisted ae give it more time, one week later, same results. My body wasn't naturally miscarrying, so I ended up having to take Cytotec. I felt horrible, like I was forcing this baby out of me. It breaks my heart. I know I have to trust God, but I am heartbroken. I feel like I am the only one who's hurting. It kills me. My husband is so supportive, but I am the one who carried and lost, so I feel my hurt is different.
Everyone keeps telling me to try again, but I am not sure, honestly. I don't want to face to hurt again.