Hi, it might sound stupid but please bear with me. I have a paranoia and just can’t stop being anxious about this until I get an experts’ answers.
When I was younger, I was heavily obese. So my mum put me in a diet program where they will massage my body, and use machine to slowly crushed my fats and wrapped me in 2-3 layers of plastic wrap to put me in a heating blanket that will heat my whole body in high heat for 30 mins to sweat out the fats they had crushed.
After that I also consumed diet medicine and exercised a lot. I lost 26 kg in 3-4 months and went to gym to tone my body after (Altho the diet was a success, it also led me to suffer bulimia for the next few years unfortunately)
Fast forward to now (I’m 21 now), due to stress in university, I’ve been putting almost 20kg of my weight back. It’s so bad that my mum told me to diet. I did exercise for a year but didn’t work at all, so I decided to go to a traditional diet massage place where they pinch your full body (Chin, face, tight, arms, tummy, calves, back and even the side of your body) and consume a diet medicine.
4 days ago, I just realised that my right breast is smaller than my right, probably by half a size or less. My right breast is more plump, full and round while my left breast is smaller, not as perky and pointy. It feels like my left has more muscle while my left is fatty?
I am not sure if my breasts have always had this much different in size and feels but I am now worried that;
1. Does the massage where they pinch my body fats affect the fats in my boobs? They don’t precisely pinch my boobs tho, but they do pinch the side of my boobs as I lay down on my tummy. (You know.. when you lay on your tummy your boobs’ fats kinda spread out to the side, so I’m not sure) — i did ask the massager and she said that she doesn’t massage the breast but the “fat wings” on the side of my chest and it won’t affect my breast size.
2. Did by breast’s size growth were affected by my diets back then? Especially with the heating machine that burns my whole body fats :(. Parts of me regret it now that maybe that’s why my breasts aren’t as big but I am also skeptical and curious if breasts’ fats are just that easy to crushed and removed? If so why are many people still struggling to reduce their breast size?
Thankyou for reading all of these and kindly respond :(( I have anxiety and been having a hard time sleeping due to my paranoia