i have been suffering from Anorexia for five years, and the last two of those years developed bulimia as welll. im 23 years old. after 5 years, i broke down and asked my mom for help, becasue my hair is falling out and my weight has consumed everry part of my life, I cant be happy or function if my bodies not tiny and thin. Im scared out of my mind, to let go of my eating disorder (although im finally ready) but i just dont for-see me being able to be happy and not depressed if i gain weight, can someone recovering from this ever truly be happy, i suffer from alcohol abuse and am a perrfectionist and my happiness has always ben depedant on my looks, but my body is falling apart, So what is the best advice you can give me now that i have stopped being in denial and am finally seeing what everyone around me is telling me? i moved in with my mom, told her all my habits, and going to see a homeopathic doctor on tuesday..i know therapy is supose to help but i went in the past fo this and was able to manipulate her? will i ever really be better? i dont want to die? and how can i get better and healthy without falling into depression, since recovery will mean i will have to put on weight?