Sara,
Thank you so much for your words. Your support has always been important.
I was also going to mention about planning your dads funeral. We did that to before my dad passed away. It was strange and painful but after they pass you will be so thankful that you did. It is such an emotional chaotic time and to have that done takes away some of the pressure. My heart goes out to you.......sara
I am very sorry to hear about your dad. I too lost my dad 3 yrs ago to brain cancer. I used the whole time he was sick. It is one of my biggest regrets and i deal with that everyday. Had i only gotten clean before all of that happened races thru my head but i didnt and i deal with those emotions now. You will never regret being clean and being with him in his final days. It is the greatest gift you can give yourself and your dad. I know you have had struggles with caring for him. Being a caregiver is a major task that comes with a ton of emotions, both good and bad. You will always be thankful that you took care of him. I am so happy to hear of what you wrote. I can feel the pain and the love in your words......Stay with your emotions now. I think you had an "ahaa" moment. I am always here if you need anything.........sara