First of all, I know how wrong this is and all, so I just want to say that I'm here to see if anyone out there is kind enough to help me. So anyways, here's the story of how it happened:
My mom's parents got divorced when she was little, and bc of this my family was never close to my grandpa. He remarried and had two more kids with his new wife, but the oldest die, so I never knew him, and that was when my grandpa got very sick. My family started visiting more and more often, and that was when I met his second son (the uncle I slept with).
Back then I was 17 and he was 21, and from the beginning we hit it off pretty good, bc we both had just gotten out of relationships, we became good friends and we did everything together, we went to dinner, to the movies, to get coffee, etc., so last Christmas we took a vacation together with some friends, we were both single, so we thought we'd share a room. I would just like to point out that when all this happened I was 20 and he was 24.
Anyways, we went to the beach, and one afternoon I got super drunk, and he was just kinda wasted, so when we got back to our room he went into the bathroom and I laid on the bed, and he came back and laid down too, at which point I decided to cuddle up to him (bc this was something we always did, we'd cuddle up watching tv and stuff but it never got weird or inappropriate), so I had my head against his chest, and he had his arms around my waste, and I can't remember how it happened but one minute we were cuddling and falling asleep and the other we were making out.
So after a while of making out, things got heavier, and next thing I know we were having sex. I don't remember much seeing how I was so drunk, but I do remember us promising that we wouldn't let things get weird between us, but of course the did, and we don't talk a lot any more.
I'm just feeling so guilty, and I don't know what to do, bc I wish I could take it back, I know if I hadn't been drunk I would've never done it.