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PLEASE HELP ME - LIVING WITH OCD FEARING HIV

Hi everyone,
I hope someone could help me. I’m 42 years old and I’ve been suffering terribly with OCD since I was 8 years old. I’ve been off and on meds since I was in my late 20’s. When I was younger I was obsessed with rituals. Now that I’m older I have repetitive thoughts about germs, pregnancy and HIV. My two biggest fears is getting pregnant and contracted HIV. I’ve been in a healthy relationship for six months but I’ve been avoiding having sex. I started birth control two months ago and I had a complete panel of STD test done and HIV. All my test came out negative, thank god. I asked my partner to get his test done and he did as well. My problem is I didn’t physically see his results. He said the doctors office called and he saved the message for me.

1. Do I believe that and move on?
2. Do I tell him I want to see a copy of his test?
3. Will this make me feel better once I do see the results?
Living with OCD has been such a nightmare. I’ve been trying my best to overcome these fears and not ruin this relationship. Does anyone have any advice? Thank you so much :)
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Sounds like you need to revisit the meds/therapy.  :>)  Yes, believe him.  Why would a person you are in a relationship with long term lie to you?  You aren't thinking rationally.  

Does he realize the extent of your OCD?  This would be a good discussion to have with him if this relationship continues.  If you aren't going to work your treatment plan and have bouts of ocd and obsessive thought, he should know so he can A. understand you and B know what he is in for.  :))  I say that compassionately.  It's hard.  And I don't want you to scare him off. But also, wouldn't it be freeing if he knew about your mental health issue?  good luck
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Thank you very much :)
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