Whats my way forward

[Mylife001]

I am with my childs father for 3years. We met n 2months later i fell pregnant. It was durimg this time he used to become violent emotionally n sometimes physically abusive. Time has since past and my boy is now 2years +. The father still continues to drink uncontrollably and has no limit. I used to walk on eggshells but now i am at that point of wanting out for the safety of my child and not having him exposed to his drunk father. I want to maintain my sanity. We stay together and when he is sober which he can be for a week i say at most and then he drinks n just doesnt know when to stop. To make this situation worse he has no ambition. What role model can he be to his son other than just being drunk most of the time. I have a demanding job and have to make sure we can afford a few luxuries in life and this is becoming quite stressful as i feel i have to hold the fort down. He is a good person with a good heart when sober but completely different when he drinks that violence and verbal abuse gets the better of him. He has gone to AA only because i begged him to go and less than 5 sessions later he believes he was not an alcoholic and didnt need to go. I know i shouldnt be worried about what happens to him if i leave but know that if i do he will spiral downwards in life perhaps ruining his life even more with alcohol.
He is a ticking time bomb when drunk. He refuses counselling or help and i would say he has pride to confront his issues. With all the stress and pressure i am exposed too i try to remain strong but i feel like soon i am going to crack. i am not a violent person but since being exposed to his drunkenness and the excessiveness of alcohol intake infuriates me so bad that i feel like wanting to knock him unconcious. Its just for my son sake that i remain calm n always have to think whats best for my little boy.
Should i get counselling to help me make a confirmed decision cause this wanting to stay and also wanting to leave is wrecking my nerves.

[specialmom]

Ah, honey.  I'm so sorry to read this.  Sincerely sorry!  That is so hard!  You have to leave.  A life with an alcoholic is horrible. Unsafe.  Chaotic.  Damaging.  It's normal to be furious as you watch your loved one go down this path.  It's maddening but also so scary that fear makes us react with rage.  You should seek some help with your own emotions and a group named Al Anon is great in the US.  But living with an alcoholic especially with a young child is something you should not do.  And while it may push him over the edge, it may be exactly what he needs.  Alcoholics start to see what they lose by drinking and somethings when the loss is big enough, they change.  Even if you are never together again, you want him to get sober so your son can have a functional parent.  

But, do this----  document everything!  Take video of him when drunk.  take pics of empty bottles. Call the police if he gets out of control.  Because you want a nice paper
trail of his actions to make sure that you maintain FULL custody of your son and he can only have SUPERVISED visits.  You do not want him in charge of your child's care . . . ever .. .  or at least until he's proven sober for a year.  

You know you need to go.  But it's scary and hard.  Feels drastic.  But every day you expose your son to this, every day he is internalizing the pain of this living situation.  Make a plan, and GET OUT.  We're here to support you.  You've written about this before.  I've said this before.  But you need to make it happen.