Sometime I wake up in the midnight, crying and shaking without a reason.
I have been in a relationship in 5 years and this is the 6 year.
I find out he might be married since the second year of our relationship and he knew I know that and he did not say a word about that.
I break up with him since I know he might got married. but he did not explain and I think maybe I just being suspicious, and I do really love him so I came back to him.
Until last year, I went to hospital with him to treat his heart problems, I find out his marriage certificate and they even got a kid. and I met him and began the relationship with him when his kind just born, not even one month.
I did not say a word to him and I always gave up to ask. I know him very well and he will not tell me anything about that.
over the past years, he just told me that I need to improve myself and learn something , blablablabla
In that case, I think, ok, so hope you all well and I will leave you. I ask for a break from work and go back to live with my parents for half a month and I cried every night. Finally, I told him to break up again.
I know his busy, but he spend a whole day trying to make me happy, but I can not.
and he told me , you have to believe me.
I doubt about his marriage again.
So, I did not really break up with him.
But I m crying at least once per week and crying when I m alone.
today , I saw his wife(I do not know they divorced or not) call him "Sweet","little chicken".
I break.
I m going to see doctors next week and I hope the doctor can help me.