Childhood guilt

[Geeeeeeee]

Hi,
I am a 29 year old female that is currently racked with so much guilt over a memory. I had to have been 12 or 13 and my younger sister was 3 or 4. I remember watching TV and trying to imitate the making out on the show for what was probably a couple of minutes. I don’t know what I was thinking as a kid doing this. I should have known better and now I can’t shake the guilt. I have been suffering with severe anxiety over over this and obsessing over the thought of my family and boyfriend finding out and thinking I’m disgusting. I basically raised my little sister because my parents were non existent and we have a super healthy relationship. Should I be beating myself up over this?

[Sandman2]

First, I highly doubt that your younger sister evens remembers this happening.
And, no, you should not be beating yourself up over this.   But, the problem is that you are apparently beating yourself up over this!  
Anxiety, left untreated is not good...and can lead to depression.  And, since the anxiety could also be caused by much more then the event you mentioned, I would recommend finding a doctor (probably a psychologist) and getting help for your anxiety. That doctor could also help you with dealing with the event you mentioned.  If it turns out that the single event is what is causing you your anxiety...I think it can be handled fairly quickly.   However, I would be somewhat surprised if this one brief event is the only cause.  I think it would be worth your time and effort to find out what is going on.  Good Luck....and let us know what happens.