ufcfan's MedHelp Blogs https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1132719 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en What A Waste I look back on my life and think of all of the things that I've done. There aren't many things that I ufcfan Mon, 07 Nov 2011 17:34:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/323957/What-A-Waste https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/323957/What-A-Waste Winding Down "The night is always darkest just before the dawn." That seems like one hell of a good saying. So her ufcfan Sun, 30 Oct 2011 19:08:01 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/322498/Winding-Down https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/322498/Winding-Down Who Am I??? The hardest part of this whole process seems to be trying to figure out who I am. If drugs and alc ufcfan Tue, 13 Sep 2011 14:33:03 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/313882/Who-Am-I https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/313882/Who-Am-I Should I Quit? Another weekend approaches. This should be a time when a 25 year old man looks forward to going out a ufcfan Fri, 26 Aug 2011 17:47:13 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/310312/Should-I-Quit https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/310312/Should-I-Quit What Have I Done? Boy, I thought that things would be different. Then again, how often on my life have things ever real ufcfan Wed, 10 Aug 2011 15:16:54 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/307151/What-Have-I-Done https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/307151/What-Have-I-Done One Last Chance This is it. This may be my last chance to get my life together. I feel like I may have made a huge mi ufcfan Tue, 26 Jul 2011 18:04:20 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/304345/One-Last-Chance https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/304345/One-Last-Chance Another Failed Attempt For what it's worth, I did try. I tried to go out and have fun. I even met a girl. Well, sort of. Wen ufcfan Mon, 18 Jul 2011 21:56:43 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/302835/Another-Failed-Attempt https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/302835/Another-Failed-Attempt Relief or Regret? After 10 years of friendship with someone to just say goodbye in such an abrupt manner can leave one ufcfan Mon, 11 Jul 2011 17:35:44 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/301529/Relief-or-Regret https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/301529/Relief-or-Regret Pure Confusion It seems like every day is just full of these thoughts that don't really make any sense. I'm always s ufcfan Mon, 09 May 2011 21:19:30 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/288712/Pure-Confusion https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/288712/Pure-Confusion Full Circle It's so funny how things end up where they start for me time and time again. Two years ago at this ti ufcfan Thu, 05 May 2011 16:37:56 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/287781/Full-Circle https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/287781/Full-Circle Trying To Make The Best Of It I shouldn't waste another Saturday night feeling sorry for myself.Try to make the best of the night. ufcfan Sat, 23 Apr 2011 15:19:16 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/285044/Trying-To-Make-The-Best-Of-It https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/285044/Trying-To-Make-The-Best-Of-It Just Feeling Bad Just feel bad. Very anxious and depressed. Stomach is a wreck from all of these medications and I'm s ufcfan Fri, 22 Apr 2011 17:19:55 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/284878/Just-Feeling-Bad https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/284878/Just-Feeling-Bad What Do I Have Left? Another Saturday night alone. Another night wasted. I guess I'm starting to realize that this IS my l ufcfan Sun, 17 Apr 2011 14:30:08 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/283645/What-Do-I-Have-Left- https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/283645/What-Do-I-Have-Left- Walking In The Rain Last night was almost the perfect night for a person like me. I spent the night walking in the rain t ufcfan Sun, 27 Mar 2011 12:24:23 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/278691/Walking-In-The-Rain https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/278691/Walking-In-The-Rain Forge Your Path I feel like I'm just living my life as a follower and feel scared to try anything on my own. Like it ufcfan Sun, 13 Mar 2011 22:02:12 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/275336/Forge-Your-Path https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/275336/Forge-Your-Path Moving On I wish I could put into words just how I feel. Depression and anxiety seem to be the only words that ufcfan Wed, 23 Feb 2011 17:19:52 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/270823/Moving-On https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/270823/Moving-On Tired Of Trying I haven't had much to talk about lately so the fact that I'm back means that things aren't going so w ufcfan Fri, 17 Sep 2010 19:01:59 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/231032/Tired-Of-Trying https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/231032/Tired-Of-Trying Learning To Control My Temper Is Much Harder Than Anythng Else I seem to have the worst time in controlling my temper and I'm really scared that it's going to cost ufcfan Sun, 08 Aug 2010 13:27:49 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/219516/Learning-To-Control-My-Temper-Is-Much-Harder-Than-Anythng-Else https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/219516/Learning-To-Control-My-Temper-Is-Much-Harder-Than-Anythng-Else Never Be How I Want Them To Be Thanks Dad. Thanks for the encouraging words. Thanks for calling me every once in a while to see ho ufcfan Fri, 06 Aug 2010 19:24:51 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/219108/Never-Be-How-I-Want-Them-To-Be https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/219108/Never-Be-How-I-Want-Them-To-Be Making The Effort Today I actually went to take my placement test for school. It felt good to do something that I sai ufcfan Thu, 05 Aug 2010 12:53:12 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/218711/Making-The-Effort https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/218711/Making-The-Effort