https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1307086 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en OK. It is time for me to write. Because I am trying to be productive and am running into a wall. At f beelzebubba Thu, 02 Sep 2010 22:32:54 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/226978/I-see-dead-things https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/226978/I-see-dead-things WTF? I have enough on my hands dealing with my depression and all of the thoughts that plague me that beelzebubba Mon, 30 Aug 2010 00:26:02 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/225730/The-hard-truth-is-too-hard https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/225730/The-hard-truth-is-too-hard I hate it when I seem to be having a good day and then without notice I plunge into the dark. I have beelzebubba Sat, 28 Aug 2010 22:30:02 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/225477/It-is-like-driving-over-a-spike-strip https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/225477/It-is-like-driving-over-a-spike-strip I had brekfast today with my brother and his wife at Waffle. Our waitress was a woman named Kate. She beelzebubba Sun, 22 Aug 2010 20:29:42 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/223735/Kates-eyes https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/223735/Kates-eyes Another gol' darn birthday spent alone. Oh sure I have dozens of internet friends, facebook friends, beelzebubba Sat, 31 Jul 2010 23:34:37 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/217279/July-31st https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/217279/July-31st I am amazed at how lame I can be at times. I am wise enough to know that there are questions one shou beelzebubba Wed, 28 Jul 2010 08:14:29 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/216214/I-shouldnt-have-asked https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/216214/I-shouldnt-have-asked I hate this depression and the fatigue and the crying and the isolating and the.... I've got somethi beelzebubba Sun, 25 Jul 2010 14:12:41 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/215367/I-hate-this-depression https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/215367/I-hate-this-depression Bro is in town with his wife. I am struck with this truth. While your parents can naturally give you beelzebubba Sat, 17 Jul 2010 06:56:18 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/212911/My-Brother https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/212911/My-Brother Since it is boiling here in L.A. I got to wondering. Would I like to die of extreme heat or extreme c beelzebubba Fri, 16 Jul 2010 19:49:29 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/212809/LA-Heat https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/212809/LA-Heat I am so devastated I feel like I can't breathe. I know it is not a done deal, at least that is what e beelzebubba Thu, 08 Jul 2010 04:48:30 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/210174/Tonights-fears https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/210174/Tonights-fears Never heard of it before but my pop has it. Apparently when a person has an extended stay in a ICU un beelzebubba Wed, 07 Jul 2010 08:02:50 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/209865/ICU-Pyschosis https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/209865/ICU-Pyschosis I was just thinking, that no matter how old you are, when both of your parents have died, you are an beelzebubba Wed, 30 Jun 2010 21:22:15 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/208003/An-orphan-is-an-orphan https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/208003/An-orphan-is-an-orphan Dad went into the hospital on Saturday with pneumonia. Poor guy. But at 87 he is still a scrappy fell beelzebubba Mon, 21 Jun 2010 09:45:02 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/205046/Another-close-call https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/205046/Another-close-call Sometimes when I want to do something but the depression tells me I don't want to do anything, life s beelzebubba Tue, 15 Jun 2010 23:16:21 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/203497/Just-out-of-reach https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/203497/Just-out-of-reach My moods have taken some radical turns today and I am glad it is time to (try) to go to sleep. I try beelzebubba Sat, 29 May 2010 00:12:10 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/197907/Hairpin-turns https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/197907/Hairpin-turns Today my dad started taking a wander down his memory lane. He got kinda philosophical about life and beelzebubba Sat, 22 May 2010 23:40:13 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195539/Ironic-and-selfish https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195539/Ironic-and-selfish My moods. If I wanted to get nauseous I'd ride a roller coaster. A real one. I just can't hang onto t beelzebubba Fri, 21 May 2010 23:35:56 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195261/Seriously https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195261/Seriously I'm off to see my pain doc. It is always anxious for me because I dread him saying "Well, lets try an beelzebubba Fri, 21 May 2010 12:27:10 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195106/Pain-doctor https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195106/Pain-doctor Saw my Psychiatrist today. She warned me that she thought I might drive myself right into a another m beelzebubba Tue, 11 May 2010 20:36:09 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/191520/Ominous-forcasting https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/191520/Ominous-forcasting There are tins, There was pork There are legs, There are sharks There was John, There are cliffs T beelzebubba Tue, 11 May 2010 08:24:54 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/191327/Third-Uncle-by-Eno-stuck-in-my-head https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/191327/Third-Uncle-by-Eno-stuck-in-my-head