beelzebubba's MedHelp Blogs https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1307086 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en I see dead things OK. It is time for me to write. Because I am trying to be productive and am running into a wall. At f beelzebubba Thu, 02 Sep 2010 22:32:54 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/226978/I-see-dead-things https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/226978/I-see-dead-things The hard truth is too hard WTF? I have enough on my hands dealing with my depression and all of the thoughts that plague me that beelzebubba Mon, 30 Aug 2010 00:26:02 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/225730/The-hard-truth-is-too-hard https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/225730/The-hard-truth-is-too-hard It is like driving over a spike strip I hate it when I seem to be having a good day and then without notice I plunge into the dark. I have beelzebubba Sat, 28 Aug 2010 22:30:02 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/225477/It-is-like-driving-over-a-spike-strip https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/225477/It-is-like-driving-over-a-spike-strip Kate's eyes I had brekfast today with my brother and his wife at Waffle. Our waitress was a woman named Kate. She beelzebubba Sun, 22 Aug 2010 20:29:42 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/223735/Kates-eyes https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/223735/Kates-eyes July 31st Another gol' darn birthday spent alone. Oh sure I have dozens of internet friends, facebook friends, beelzebubba Sat, 31 Jul 2010 23:34:37 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/217279/July-31st https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/217279/July-31st I shouldn't have asked I am amazed at how lame I can be at times. I am wise enough to know that there are questions one shou beelzebubba Wed, 28 Jul 2010 08:14:29 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/216214/I-shouldnt-have-asked https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/216214/I-shouldnt-have-asked I hate this depression I hate this depression and the fatigue and the crying and the isolating and the.... I've got somethi beelzebubba Sun, 25 Jul 2010 14:12:41 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/215367/I-hate-this-depression https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/215367/I-hate-this-depression My Brother Bro is in town with his wife. I am struck with this truth. While your parents can naturally give you beelzebubba Sat, 17 Jul 2010 06:56:18 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/212911/My-Brother https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/212911/My-Brother L.A. Heat Since it is boiling here in L.A. I got to wondering. Would I like to die of extreme heat or extreme c beelzebubba Fri, 16 Jul 2010 19:49:29 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/212809/LA-Heat https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/212809/LA-Heat Tonight's fears I am so devastated I feel like I can't breathe. I know it is not a done deal, at least that is what e beelzebubba Thu, 08 Jul 2010 04:48:30 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/210174/Tonights-fears https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/210174/Tonights-fears ICU Pyschosis Never heard of it before but my pop has it. Apparently when a person has an extended stay in a ICU un beelzebubba Wed, 07 Jul 2010 08:02:50 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/209865/ICU-Pyschosis https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/209865/ICU-Pyschosis An orphan is an orphan I was just thinking, that no matter how old you are, when both of your parents have died, you are an beelzebubba Wed, 30 Jun 2010 21:22:15 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/208003/An-orphan-is-an-orphan https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/208003/An-orphan-is-an-orphan Another close call Dad went into the hospital on Saturday with pneumonia. Poor guy. But at 87 he is still a scrappy fell beelzebubba Mon, 21 Jun 2010 09:45:02 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/205046/Another-close-call https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/205046/Another-close-call Just out of reach Sometimes when I want to do something but the depression tells me I don't want to do anything, life s beelzebubba Tue, 15 Jun 2010 23:16:21 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/203497/Just-out-of-reach https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/203497/Just-out-of-reach Hairpin turns My moods have taken some radical turns today and I am glad it is time to (try) to go to sleep. I try beelzebubba Sat, 29 May 2010 00:12:10 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/197907/Hairpin-turns https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/197907/Hairpin-turns Ironic and selfish Today my dad started taking a wander down his memory lane. He got kinda philosophical about life and beelzebubba Sat, 22 May 2010 23:40:13 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195539/Ironic-and-selfish https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195539/Ironic-and-selfish Seriously My moods. If I wanted to get nauseous I'd ride a roller coaster. A real one. I just can't hang onto t beelzebubba Fri, 21 May 2010 23:35:56 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195261/Seriously https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195261/Seriously Pain doctor I'm off to see my pain doc. It is always anxious for me because I dread him saying "Well, lets try an beelzebubba Fri, 21 May 2010 12:27:10 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195106/Pain-doctor https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/195106/Pain-doctor Ominous forcasting Saw my Psychiatrist today. She warned me that she thought I might drive myself right into a another m beelzebubba Tue, 11 May 2010 20:36:09 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/191520/Ominous-forcasting https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/191520/Ominous-forcasting Third Uncle by Eno stuck in my head.... There are tins, There was pork There are legs, There are sharks There was John, There are cliffs T beelzebubba Tue, 11 May 2010 08:24:54 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/191327/Third-Uncle-by-Eno-stuck-in-my-head https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/191327/Third-Uncle-by-Eno-stuck-in-my-head