beelzebubba's MedHelp Blogs Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en I see dead things OK. It is time for me to write. Because I am trying to be productive and am running into a wall. At f beelzebubba Thu, 02 Sep 2010 22:32:54 -0500 The hard truth is too hard WTF? I have enough on my hands dealing with my depression and all of the thoughts that plague me that beelzebubba Mon, 30 Aug 2010 00:26:02 -0500 It is like driving over a spike strip I hate it when I seem to be having a good day and then without notice I plunge into the dark. I have beelzebubba Sat, 28 Aug 2010 22:30:02 -0500 Kate's eyes I had brekfast today with my brother and his wife at Waffle. Our waitress was a woman named Kate. She beelzebubba Sun, 22 Aug 2010 20:29:42 -0500 July 31st Another gol' darn birthday spent alone. Oh sure I have dozens of internet friends, facebook friends, beelzebubba Sat, 31 Jul 2010 23:34:37 -0500 I shouldn't have asked I am amazed at how lame I can be at times. I am wise enough to know that there are questions one shou beelzebubba Wed, 28 Jul 2010 08:14:29 -0500 I hate this depression I hate this depression and the fatigue and the crying and the isolating and the.... I've got somethi beelzebubba Sun, 25 Jul 2010 14:12:41 -0500 My Brother Bro is in town with his wife. I am struck with this truth. While your parents can naturally give you beelzebubba Sat, 17 Jul 2010 06:56:18 -0500 L.A. Heat Since it is boiling here in L.A. I got to wondering. Would I like to die of extreme heat or extreme c beelzebubba Fri, 16 Jul 2010 19:49:29 -0500 Tonight's fears I am so devastated I feel like I can't breathe. I know it is not a done deal, at least that is what e beelzebubba Thu, 08 Jul 2010 04:48:30 -0500 ICU Pyschosis Never heard of it before but my pop has it. Apparently when a person has an extended stay in a ICU un beelzebubba Wed, 07 Jul 2010 08:02:50 -0500 An orphan is an orphan I was just thinking, that no matter how old you are, when both of your parents have died, you are an beelzebubba Wed, 30 Jun 2010 21:22:15 -0500 Another close call Dad went into the hospital on Saturday with pneumonia. Poor guy. But at 87 he is still a scrappy fell beelzebubba Mon, 21 Jun 2010 09:45:02 -0500 Just out of reach Sometimes when I want to do something but the depression tells me I don't want to do anything, life s beelzebubba Tue, 15 Jun 2010 23:16:21 -0500 Hairpin turns My moods have taken some radical turns today and I am glad it is time to (try) to go to sleep. I try beelzebubba Sat, 29 May 2010 00:12:10 -0500 Ironic and selfish Today my dad started taking a wander down his memory lane. He got kinda philosophical about life and beelzebubba Sat, 22 May 2010 23:40:13 -0500 Seriously My moods. If I wanted to get nauseous I'd ride a roller coaster. A real one. I just can't hang onto t beelzebubba Fri, 21 May 2010 23:35:56 -0500 Pain doctor I'm off to see my pain doc. It is always anxious for me because I dread him saying "Well, lets try an beelzebubba Fri, 21 May 2010 12:27:10 -0500 Ominous forcasting Saw my Psychiatrist today. She warned me that she thought I might drive myself right into a another m beelzebubba Tue, 11 May 2010 20:36:09 -0500 Third Uncle by Eno stuck in my head.... There are tins, There was pork There are legs, There are sharks There was John, There are cliffs T beelzebubba Tue, 11 May 2010 08:24:54 -0500