Bran_Bran's MedHelp Blogs https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1368896 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en Everything Is Wrong, I've Lost ALL My Self Worth! </3 So much has happened in the last few months. I moved half way across the country in with my Dad and S Bran_Bran Sat, 29 Dec 2012 02:53:14 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/638046/Everything-Is-Wrong--Ive-Lost-ALL-My-Self-Worth--3- https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/638046/Everything-Is-Wrong--Ive-Lost-ALL-My-Self-Worth--3- Talked/Opened up to my Mum! :D :D :D Just talked to mum about about my weight. :D It took a while for me to actually press send but I did Bran_Bran Fri, 26 Aug 2011 19:48:01 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/310334/Talked-Opened-up-to-my-Mum-D-D-D https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/310334/Talked-Opened-up-to-my-Mum-D-D-D Recovery of ED . . . not possible :( You know I watch these videos were they say recovery is possible, but is it really? NO!  I hate my Bran_Bran Thu, 25 Aug 2011 15:17:16 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/310061/Recovery-of-ED----not-possible-- https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/310061/Recovery-of-ED----not-possible-- Just another divorce Well that's it I'm pretty sure mum and Harold are done, they're splitting. Not like I haven't lived t Bran_Bran Tue, 07 Jun 2011 20:13:52 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/294931/Just-another-divorce- https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/294931/Just-another-divorce- The scale rules my life! :( Saturday May 21st 2011 :( I am tired of the scale ruling my life! I just weighed myself and as I was Bran_Bran Sat, 21 May 2011 22:38:11 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/291416/The-scale-rules-my-life- https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/291416/The-scale-rules-my-life- Spent my day at the hospital. Monday April 25th 2011  Just got back from the hospital and had dinner. Passed out like 3 or 4 times Bran_Bran Mon, 25 Apr 2011 18:02:42 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/285509/Spent-my-day-at-the-hospital- https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/285509/Spent-my-day-at-the-hospital- I was gonna fight, but I give up. The voice wins! I'm so stuck! Last night I Told Jeff that I'm done and I want help. But today that's the last thing I Bran_Bran Sun, 24 Apr 2011 12:12:44 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/285200/I-was-gonna-fight--but-I-give-up-The-voice-wins- https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/285200/I-was-gonna-fight--but-I-give-up-The-voice-wins- I L<3VE my BFF, stupid food! Wednesday April 13th 2011 - I'm so glad I have Tracey! I don't know were I would be without her! She Bran_Bran Thu, 14 Apr 2011 18:50:29 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/283132/I-L3VE-my-BFF--stupid-food https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/283132/I-L3VE-my-BFF--stupid-food I don't want to be forced to be fat! I'm actually really scared, mum said on Friday that if I lose any more weight she's going to take me Bran_Bran Tue, 12 Apr 2011 05:48:03 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/282509/I-dont-want-to-be-forced-to-be-fat https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/282509/I-dont-want-to-be-forced-to-be-fat Starting this to help anyone! Please pass this on so I can help as many people as possible! :) For anyone reading this sorry if journal is not right area to post this but I can not think of anywhe Bran_Bran Wed, 30 Mar 2011 21:17:33 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/279623/Starting-this-to-help-anyone--Please-pass-this-on-so-I-can-help-as-many-people-as-possible-- https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/279623/Starting-this-to-help-anyone--Please-pass-this-on-so-I-can-help-as-many-people-as-possible-- Mum knows now about my attempts. Monday March 14th 2011  - Maryanne told mum last night about my attempts :( it was so stressful mum Bran_Bran Mon, 14 Mar 2011 20:51:47 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/275603/Mum-knows-now-about-my-attempts- https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/275603/Mum-knows-now-about-my-attempts- I'm going to miss you Cookie girl! <3 Friday March 11th 2011 My poor Cookie dog was put down today :( I'm really going to miss my Cookie g Bran_Bran Fri, 11 Mar 2011 23:06:12 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/274922/Im-going-to-miss-you-Cookie-girl-3 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/274922/Im-going-to-miss-you-Cookie-girl-3 What a relief! Wednesday March 9th 2011 - I didn't want to weigh myself, I wanted to go on believing I'm skinny. I Bran_Bran Thu, 10 Mar 2011 15:45:18 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/274585/What-a-relief- https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/274585/What-a-relief- Recovery week (ate too much) Mum and everyone has been on me lately about me being too skinny, so I've been trying to prove them a Bran_Bran Sun, 06 Mar 2011 14:39:05 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/273538/Recovery-week-ate-too-much https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/273538/Recovery-week-ate-too-much I'm so scared! What will she think??? Sunday February 27th 2011 - The guidance councilor mentioned my weight in front of mum! Now mums rea Bran_Bran Mon, 28 Feb 2011 20:58:45 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/272155/Im-so-scared-What-will-she-think https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/272155/Im-so-scared-What-will-she-think I hate that mum wants me to gain 20 pounds, I say nay nay! - The guidance councilor mentioned my weight in front of mum! Now mums really On me! She wants me to Bran_Bran Fri, 25 Feb 2011 20:25:57 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/271450/I-hate-that-mum-wants-me-to-gain-20-pounds--I-say-nay-nay https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/271450/I-hate-that-mum-wants-me-to-gain-20-pounds--I-say-nay-nay I say nay nay! Thursday February 17th 2011 - WOW OMG I just realized what this all is. The stupid devil is trying t Bran_Bran Thu, 17 Feb 2011 21:23:51 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/269301/I-say-nay-nay https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/269301/I-say-nay-nay YES I'm finally under weight! - OMG YES I am finally officially under weight! I don't care how stupid this sounds but I LOVE it. It Bran_Bran Mon, 31 Jan 2011 18:25:54 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/264847/YES-Im-finally-under-weight https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/264847/YES-Im-finally-under-weight I hate that my friends keep getting mad at me for this, if I could stop I would! Wednesday January 19th 2011 - Emma and Chris on the bus were talking about his m&ms and all I said t Bran_Bran Wed, 19 Jan 2011 21:12:17 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/261712/I-hate-that-my-friends-keep-getting-mad-at-me-for-this--if-I-could-stop-I-would https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/261712/I-hate-that-my-friends-keep-getting-mad-at-me-for-this--if-I-could-stop-I-would They made me eat, I hate myself for eating so much! - they made me have dinner =( I'm such a failure I should of found and excuse =( I'm never going to l Bran_Bran Fri, 14 Jan 2011 19:46:40 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/260295/They-made-me-eat--I-hate-myself-for-eating-so-much https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/260295/They-made-me-eat--I-hate-myself-for-eating-so-much