Hairytoes's MedHelp Blogs https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/15253767 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en Trending Down! Watch Out! Don't Plateau. I looked at harder stuff than I have since the last time I acted out. Luckily, I changed my mind and Hairytoes Sat, 29 Aug 2015 15:41:47 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1652272/Trending-Down-Watch-Out-Dont-Plateau https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1652272/Trending-Down-Watch-Out-Dont-Plateau 15 days I'm set on abstaining from any looking at all for 15 days. That will take me to 30 days overall. I d Hairytoes Fri, 28 Aug 2015 12:06:19 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1650711/15-days https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1650711/15-days Break Through This Wall! I came so close to acting out tonight. I know I am experiencing withdrawals. No doubt my affirmations Hairytoes Wed, 26 Aug 2015 19:04:24 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1646367/Break-Through-This-Wall https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1646367/Break-Through-This-Wall Half Way to 30! I'm halfway to 30 days. I know this hasn't been a purely clean 15 days so far. I'm hoping to not look Hairytoes Wed, 26 Aug 2015 15:28:02 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1646286/Half-Way-to-30 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1646286/Half-Way-to-30 Affirmations I'm really having a good couple of days! Tennis may be the replacement for SA. I need to just cont Hairytoes Wed, 26 Aug 2015 15:19:46 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1646283/Affirmations https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1646283/Affirmations Tuesday Much better day today. I did only worthwhile things. I had one time today where improper thoughts cam Hairytoes Tue, 25 Aug 2015 16:48:23 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1644994/Tuesday https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1644994/Tuesday GETTING AWAY FROM TRUSTING...again Well, the day is pretty much finishing out. I did affirmations twice. They seem to be working, but ma Hairytoes Mon, 24 Aug 2015 15:17:37 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1644208/GETTING-AWAY-FROM-TRUSTINGagain https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1644208/GETTING-AWAY-FROM-TRUSTINGagain Progress I had a good two days with no skirting or acting out. Today, I skirted a little but found some streng Hairytoes Mon, 24 Aug 2015 08:12:48 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1643631/Progress https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1643631/Progress Keep Keeping On I took my 'skirting' a little further yesterday, though I didn't look as long. I guess my tracker is Hairytoes Sat, 22 Aug 2015 11:16:51 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1638987/Keep-Keeping-On https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1638987/Keep-Keeping-On Not So Bad I thought about it some more. I shouldn't be too hard on myself. I have resisted to a degree. I havn' Hairytoes Thu, 20 Aug 2015 18:02:02 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1636635/Not-So-Bad https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1636635/Not-So-Bad Fourth Day Fourth day in a row I have played around for hours on the lines of my boundaries. I may have even ste Hairytoes Thu, 20 Aug 2015 15:22:52 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1636581/Fourth-Day https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1636581/Fourth-Day Duplicate of Yesterday Today has been a duplicate of today. I "skirted" the boundary. Though, again, I didn't technically vi Hairytoes Tue, 18 Aug 2015 11:51:44 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1634548/Duplicate-of-Yesterday https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1634548/Duplicate-of-Yesterday Mid-Day Check In It's in the afternoon now. I had about two times where a phantom SA thought was presented to me. By g Hairytoes Mon, 17 Aug 2015 11:30:57 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1633348/Mid-Day-Check-In https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1633348/Mid-Day-Check-In Gray Area FocusMe was not up when I turned on the computer! It caused me to skirt on the edge of acting out. I Hairytoes Mon, 17 Aug 2015 09:30:55 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1633336/Gray-Area https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1633336/Gray-Area 4 Day benchmark Four days, I hear, is a benchmark. It is the beginning where a brain begins to learn the new attitude Hairytoes Sun, 16 Aug 2015 08:01:58 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1632445/4-Day-benchmark https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1632445/4-Day-benchmark Rewards. Mon and Tue...what should I do? I am thinking about the rewards in succeeding in SA: a smartphone in a year. I am also nervous about Hairytoes Sat, 15 Aug 2015 09:31:06 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1630408/Rewards-Mon-and-Tuewhat-should-I-do https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1630408/Rewards-Mon-and-Tuewhat-should-I-do REPLACEwith TRUST not DON'T DO I'm trying to remember to believe God every day - Everything he has told me. I need to trust in Him w Hairytoes Fri, 14 Aug 2015 11:06:47 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1630105/REPLACEwith-TRUST-not-DONT-DO https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1630105/REPLACEwith-TRUST-not-DONT-DO Keep my thoughts and heart on Him.Put trust in the being God! I have to type this before I forget and fall victim again to the porn. I have only on thing to do. IT Hairytoes Thu, 13 Aug 2015 12:27:23 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1629822/Keep-my-thoughts-and-heart-on-HimPut-trust-in-the-being-God https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1629822/Keep-my-thoughts-and-heart-on-HimPut-trust-in-the-being-God SA Emotions Diminsh Critical Thinking I find that when time has passed from my last period of acting out, feelings begin to wash over me at Hairytoes Thu, 13 Aug 2015 12:11:15 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1629819/SA-Emotions-Diminsh-Critical-Thinking https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1629819/SA-Emotions-Diminsh-Critical-Thinking Belief Helped with Today...a LOT less work too! I know I need to stop trying and start believing. That has always been the most effective method. Oth Hairytoes Wed, 12 Aug 2015 16:44:37 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1629183/Belief-Helped-with-Todaya-LOT-less-work-too https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1629183/Belief-Helped-with-Todaya-LOT-less-work-too