ShinigamiDeathscytheSan's MedHelp Blogs https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1612312 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en i'm not okay i am seriously about two inches from a full-on mental break down right now. the only thing keeping my ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Fri, 15 Feb 2013 02:08:27 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/683795/im-not-okay https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/683795/im-not-okay Food Ugh so my dad is coming to see me tomorrow. Thats never a positive thing but whats worse is we're gon ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Wed, 12 Dec 2012 02:17:42 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/622250/Food https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/622250/Food jeez im really missing home again. well, not home, but high school. this is not good. i cant keep it toget ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Tue, 11 Dec 2012 02:07:11 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/620901/jeez https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/620901/jeez Wow Haha im not used having so little food anymore. Its been over a year since i was restricting wow. Im ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Mon, 10 Dec 2012 19:20:53 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/620509/Wow https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/620509/Wow gah. i dont know what to do with myself right now. my brain just gave me the most serious inclination i've ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Wed, 07 Nov 2012 23:28:08 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/584898/gah https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/584898/gah I feel like... I feel like i shoulda voted. But obama won anyway. The electoral college votes won by a landslide. Th ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Wed, 07 Nov 2012 02:14:12 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/584012/I-feel-like https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/584012/I-feel-like aww fukkkkkkk i just realized something. when fred's and my one year anniversary hits in december.... fukkkkkk. i'm ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Wed, 31 Oct 2012 01:44:06 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/575865/aww-fukkkkkkk https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/575865/aww-fukkkkkkk Broken Promise I did something today that i never thought i would ever again. I cut. after over a year of being... ' ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Sat, 29 Sep 2012 23:21:59 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/557972/Broken-Promise https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/557972/Broken-Promise idiot wow im such a freaking idiot. my ONE night class, all fukking week, and i forget to go. i FORGOT. tha ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Tue, 11 Sep 2012 13:29:40 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/550418/idiot https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/550418/idiot its official I've officially given up on writing. Might as well start forgetting that dream of being a best sellin ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Wed, 08 Aug 2012 23:47:46 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/525553/its-official https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/525553/its-official homesick Is it weird to say that, even though I don't leave for college until another three weeks, I'm already ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Mon, 06 Aug 2012 01:14:29 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/524739/homesick https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/524739/homesick sometimes.... i really just get sick of people. i guess it's normal, but when i need alone time, i get frustrated.. ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Sun, 29 Jul 2012 22:36:16 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/521851/sometimes https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/521851/sometimes something good so, as odd as this sounds, for the past year and a half, i've had a persistent feeling of running out ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Sun, 01 Jul 2012 01:32:25 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/511903/something-good https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/511903/something-good thinking bad thoughts... i have a very bad image in my head right now. an image i want to make a reality, at least part of me ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Sat, 02 Jun 2012 23:27:23 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/432978/thinking-bad-thoughts https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/432978/thinking-bad-thoughts ow.... ugh my head hurts. cuz i was bashing it against the wall. ....i know what you're thinking "what a fuk ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Thu, 24 May 2012 00:43:16 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/427700/ow https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/427700/ow is it weird that... is it weird that, now that i'm living with my dad full time, i've grown to hate him? and my mom, who ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Tue, 22 May 2012 00:42:32 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/426897/is-it-weird-that https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/426897/is-it-weird-that so alone i feel so freaking alone right now. we got back from the disneyland grad night trip this morning and ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Sat, 12 May 2012 18:29:10 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/387066/so-alone https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/387066/so-alone its a good thing... That my eyes don't get puffy from crying at night, cuz I've been doing a lot of late night crying. I ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Tue, 17 Apr 2012 01:03:47 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/352741/its-a-good-thing https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/352741/its-a-good-thing really, theres no hope I just don't know what to do anymore. People keep saying that it gets better. Hell, they've been tell ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Fri, 23 Mar 2012 22:41:30 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/348479/really--theres-no-hope https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/348479/really--theres-no-hope just a quick question... ...why is it that struggling to hold back tears is such a normal feeling for me? why do i have to dea ShinigamiDeathscytheSan Mon, 05 Mar 2012 21:50:29 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/345242/just-a-quick-question https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/345242/just-a-quick-question