Ashley_tiny85's MedHelp Blogs https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1831528 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en red flag So. All these thoughts of suicide constantly consume my every waking moment it seems. I thought I was Ashley_tiny85 Sat, 08 Oct 2011 19:19:46 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318689/red-flag https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318689/red-flag what am i doing? I really don't know what I am doing. I mean I never imagined myself involved in a from online to comm Ashley_tiny85 Fri, 07 Oct 2011 21:50:31 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318570/what-am-i-doing https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318570/what-am-i-doing one whole day I am about at an entire day clean. This is probably the millionith time I have tried. I just can neve Ashley_tiny85 Fri, 07 Oct 2011 20:36:56 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318562/one-whole-day https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318562/one-whole-day what next I keep going back in forth in my head- am I ready to quit using. I want to and i do not want to, Yest Ashley_tiny85 Fri, 07 Oct 2011 14:28:38 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318504/what-next https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318504/what-next and again Ok this has been a crazy night for me. Here I sit quacked out from meth all day spending the night ru Ashley_tiny85 Fri, 07 Oct 2011 06:45:22 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318423/and-again https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318423/and-again first 24 Ok this has been a crazy night for me. Here I sit quacked out from meth all day spending the night ru Ashley_tiny85 Fri, 07 Oct 2011 06:44:38 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318421/first-24 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318421/first-24 Lost This whole thing must be a joke. This game of life...it is a joke, and apparently the ****** joke is Ashley_tiny85 Fri, 07 Oct 2011 04:44:45 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318411/Lost https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318411/Lost 10/6/2011 All I can think about lately is what a lonely world this is we live in. Even those closet to me are a Ashley_tiny85 Fri, 07 Oct 2011 04:16:15 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318409/10-6-2011 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/318409/10-6-2011